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\epigraph{``you call me villain

cast the word as you

would a stone;

seek to bury under

scorn of herded

multitude, and yet

forget my Name:

I am empress

most dread,

savage ruler of

yet fiercer race;

did you expect

meekness of me?

you call me villain

speak it a curse

as if Hells were

grasping instead

of grasped;

as if I had knelt.

you dare?

I am tyrant,

bringer of calamity;

crowned and

crowning glory

of mine empire

be fearful now

tremble; for

my reach is long

my wrath is great

patient but

unrivalled

above or below

and I will be

Triumphant''}{Extract from the play ``I, Triumphant'', author unknown, banned by
decree of the Tower under Terribilis II}



Finding Black was easy.

According to my legionaries, he'd not left the rooms he'd claimed on the
highest level of an abandoned house since we'd had the meeting with
Heiress. He'd had visitors, though, including Warlock and Juniper. I was
mildly surprised to find the moon up in the sky when I started the trek
to his quarters, but if I'd slept that long there was no denying my body
had needed it. I'd used my Name much, drawn deeper from the well than I
ever had before save perhaps on the night William had given me the scar
across my chest. It was kind of ridiculous that Hakram could be back on
his feet after taking even worse punishment than me, but orcs were made
of sterner stuff than humans. Bigger and harder bones, thicker skin and
even a proportionally larger heart. There was something different about
their stomachs too, related to how they ate almost only meat, but I'd
never been entirely clear on what acidic humours actually did. I set
aside the train of thought, recognizing it for the dissembling it was.

It was strange to find no Blackguards looming silently by the door,
watching everything from behind their helmets. My teacher's personal
guard followed him everywhere, but I supposed going through Arcadia
might have been a bit much for regular humans. Black had been vague when
I'd asked him how he'd managed the trip, though he'd at least confirmed
Warlock had not been the one to open the way through the other realm.
Likely they'd summoned and coerced one of the Fae, which I'd had no idea
was actually possible until now. What they could have threatened it with
I did not know, but if there was anyone in the Empire who could put the
fear of the Gods in a creature like that it was Black. The stairs were
rickety and I paused when I felt something odd about them, frowning as I
used my Name sight on the wood. Runes had been traced in some kind of
golden sorcery, I saw. Most of the mage tongue was still foreign to me,
but I recognized a rune associated with explosions and another with
alarms.

I sighed. Of course he'd trapped the place. His manor in Ater was the
second most-heavily warded place in the city, and some of the noble
families had accumulated protections on theirs for centuries. Most of
the work had been done by Warlock, apparently, but he'd also used ward
designs coming from as far as the other side of the Tyrian Sea. The Yan
Tei were famous for their arrays, whether sealing or protective: when
they'd landed their punitive army on Praesi shores, back in Triumphant's
day, they'd trapped at least a dozen demons in scrolls and carried them
home after the war. That seemed like a horrible idea to me, now that I
had personal experience with demons, but the Yan Tei did things
differently from Calernians. No nation on our continent would be able to
function with both a hero and a villain sharing the highest level of
authority, but they seemed to be doing fine.

Since Black was disinclined to blow up the stairs under me, I finished
the trip up the creaking steps. The door to his room was closed so I
knocked and waited a few heartbeats before opening it. My teacher was
seated at a table that had clearly come from somewhere else -- it was
much nicer compared to the rest of the furnishings, and too large to
make up the stairway -- with papers splayed all over the surface and a
lit up scrying bowl to his side. Candles were scattered across the room,
and the faraway silhouette of the moon shone through the window. As
usual, his back was turned to the wall. He signalled for me to come in
without turning, listening to the voice coming from the bowl.

``- won't settle for anything less than double,'' Scribe said.

``It's like negotiating with a dragon,'' the dark-haired man muttered
peevishly. ``Fine, it'll be a dent in the coffers but we can afford it.
But make it clear the payoff is contingent on them following the
itinerary we provided.''

``Your will be done,'' Scribe replied, a tad drily.

Without either of them bothering with goodbyes, the scrying light winked
out. There was a sad excuse for a chair placed across the table so I
claimed it without a word as I snuck a look at the papers in front of
him. The handwriting in most of them was familiar: Juniper's calligraphy
was as exemplary as ever, a far cry from my own hasty scribbles. How she
managed that with fingers twice as thick as mine remained a mystery.
After-action reports for Three Hills and Marchford, if I had to guess.

``Bribing someone?'' I asked curiously.

``In a manner of speaking,'' he said ``Scribe is tying up some loose
ends for me.''

I hummed. ``Where did you find her, anyway? The stories don't say.''

The plain-faced woman was barely in them at all. That almost amused me,
considering how important she was to my teacher's administration of
Callow: I suspected Scribe was the reason why he'd never had to set up
shop in a single city while stabilizing the country after the Conquest.
The implication of that was that she single-handedly served as both the
head of his spy network and a one-woman bureaucracy for a territory
about the same size of the Empire. Scribe was not someone to
underestimate just because she didn't go around swinging a sword, I'd
known that even before Ime had warned me never to attract her ire.

``The Free Cities,'' he said. ``It was an interesting encounter in many
ways.''

\emph{I bet.} In the Tower, Scribe had implied she would have preferred
for Black to take the throne instead of Malicia -- and that Ranger had
shared that preference. I'd glimpsed some of the reasons for Ranger's
opinion in my latest dream, but the other woman was still very much a
riddle to me. I'd never got the impression that Scribe was all that
invested in the Empire itself: Black was the real reason she was here.
With Warlock having outright admitted to me he didn't give a single fuck
about Praes as a whole, that made two of the Calamities whose only
loyalty was to my teacher. Given that Captain's very Role was bound to
the concept of protecting Black, that painted a dangerous picture. There
were five major Named in the Empire, aside from the Empress, and only
one of them was a staunch supporter of Malicia: the rest only supported
her reign by default, allegiance filtered through the Black Knight and
dependent on his position.

My teacher was perfectly positioned for a coup. He'd founded the modern
Legions of Terror, personally led most of their generals on the field
and crafted their very philosophy. He had the Named on his side and
likely most of the army. Any other villain I could think of would have
already killed Malicia and taken the throne, so why hadn't he? That he
was Duni must have been part of it: a paleskin on the throne would be
met with immediate and bitter rebellion by most of the High Lords. I
knew he was close to the Empress so that must have been a factor too,
but there must have been more to it. The Black Knight was, ultimately,
an icily pragmatic man: I did not believe that even a long-standing
friendship would stay his hand if the recipient was in his way. I'd been
promised an answer to those questions in a way, and it was time to
collect. Phrasing would be important, though. He was a hard man to
offend, but just asking \emph{by the way, why haven't you murdered one
of your closest friends and taken her stuff} would have him get all
sardonic on me. Something to avoid: his sarcasm tended to be on the
savage side.

``The Empire is not sustainable,'' I said instead.

Blurted out, really, but what I was saying wasn't a surprise to him.
He'd left me markers on the path down to that understanding, though he'd
refrained from just handing me the knowledge. He'd been right to do
that: there would always have been a kernel of doubt, if I'd not put it
together myself. As usual, the man surprised me with how well he
understood how I thought.

``Finished the books, have you?'' he said. ``You are essentially
correct, as long as the borders of the Empire remain what they were
previous to the Conquest.''

``That's just delaying the problem, though,'' I pointed out.
``Eventually the population of Praes will get too big for Callow to
feed, and honestly that's something that boggles my mind. Why does the
population keep getting bigger if you can't feed it? Even if Tyrants
don't to anything to address the problem, starvation by itself should
keep the whole thing manageable.''

Black leaned back in his seat, reaching for a jug of wine I hadn't even
noticed and pouring himself a glass. With a silently raised eyebrow he
asked me if I wanted a cup too and I shrugged. He took it as a yes and
placed the full glass in front of me.

``Because we have the misfortune of being very, very rich,'' he said.
``As long as the trade lanes to the Free Cities remain open, we can
import large amounts of grain from Ashur and Procer.''

``Procer,'' I repeated dubiously. ``I could buy Ashur, since they're
merchants to the bone, but the Principate feeding the Empire? That's a
little dubious.''

``Through intermediaries,'' he said. ``Most people care little for the
philosophical debates of heroes and villains, Catherine. In the end,
there is a demand for grain in Praes and a surplus of grain in the
Principate. The Free Cities merely provide the necessary fig leaf for
that commerce to not rustle too many feathers.''

``So you're telling me it \emph{is} sustainable, then,'' I frowned.

``No, you were correct in your initial thought. On good years, those
imports and the field sacrifices allowed us to keep our head barely
above the water. Should there ever be a diplomatic incident down south,
though, or even if the crops were average instead of bountiful, hunger
spread across the Empire.''

``And Tyrants just allowed that?'' I said disbelievingly. ``Hells, half
of them were mad as\ldots{} well, an Emperor is the usual comparison
actually, and the other half were idiots but none of them were above a
spot of massacre. Not a single one of them decided to clear out a few
cities to make this simpler, or even just restrict childbirth? You
already do it to the Tribes.''

Black sipped at his glass. I left mine untouched.

``Terribilis -- the second one -- was in a unique position after he
reunited Praes,'' the dark-haired man said. ``His reign was stable, his
support in the nobility widespread and the Empire's military strength
was at one of its historical high points. Twenty years of constant war
had brought down the numbers to something easy to manage, and he decided
to end the issue forever with magical sterilization and strict familial
laws. He had, you see, no Callowan ambitions.''

The Knight put down his glass, the sound of it oddly final.

``Within a month of his first decree, he was assassinated,'' Black
finished.

``And that's the end of it?'' I said. ``Just because one failed it's not
worth trying?''

``The second Maleficent came closer,'' he replied. ``She got the Empire
involved in the Free Cities, where we could bleed our surplus on foreign
fields. She was too successful: Ashur and Procer allied to drive her
out. Maleficent did not survive her defeat. Dread Emperor Vile tried it
with a magical plague that would kill two in ten, only to trigger the
War of Thirteen Tyrants and One. Sanguinara -- not to be confused with
the Sanguinias -- made any and all law-breaking a capital offense.
Overthrown within the year. Bilius the Beast attempted the Dead King's
gambit of turning all Praesi into undead. Poisoned by his Chancellor,
before heroes even arrived on the scene.''

``What are you saying, exactly?''

``Every single Tyrant who tried to dam Praesi population growth was
rebelled against, disgraced or assassinated,'' he spoke calmly.

And Malicia still reigned. The implications of that were horrifying.

``So Praes has been swelling with twenty years of easy food imports.
Gods save us all,'' I whispered.

``Less than you would think,'' Black replied. ``We had two major wars
before the annexation, which killed a significant portion of people of
childbearing age. Legionaries cannot have children while in service,
even in logistical posts, unless a permit is granted. Malicia instituted
a similar policy for the Imperial bureaucracy, which also had the effect
of limiting aristocratic influence in the ranks. And the peasantry only
gets fringe benefits from our access to Callowan fields.''

``But it will swell, eventually,'' I said. ``In ten years or fifty, it
makes no difference. And when it does, the Empire will need another
war.''

And Calernia would bleed. And \emph{Callow} would bleed, as the land
closest to Procer -- for there was no doubt the Principate would
intervene, even if they weren't the target. Procerans fancied themselves
the nation that kept Evil at bay, and though they had a nasty tendency
to annex their neighbours there was no denying it was them keeping the
Chain of Hunger and the Kingdom of the Dead bottled up.

``It will, if it remains the same Empire it currently is,'' Black agreed
softly.

I closed my eyes, parsing out what he'd meant by that. The problem was
twofold, as I saw it. Not enough product and too much demand. Getting
more product was just delaying the problem, since the demand would keep
growing. Lessening the demand was the only way, but resulted in the
toppling of the current regime.

``Why?'' I said. ``Why has every single Tyrant who tried to control
population been overthrown? Many could be a bad string of coincidences,
but \emph{every single one}? That's\ldots{} bigger.''

Pride flickered in the man's eyes.

``Yes,'' he said. ``The right question. \emph{Why}? For years I
wondered. Was Evil, by nature, inherently self-destructive? The House of
Light argues as much. But the House of Light is a Calernian institution,
shaped by Calernian struggles. Its perspective is limited. Creation,
Catherine, is a thing of patterns and balance.''

``The pattern for Praes is fucking up pretty bad,'' I pointed out.

``The pattern for Praes is to grasp,'' he corrected. ``The pattern for
Callow is to be grasped.''

And just like that it clicked. For every aspect of Conquer, there was an
aspect of Protect. For every hero there was a villain. Balance, enforced
by a pattern. Praes got hungry, and so it invaded Callow. That was their
pattern. The Empire failed, but the failure was so catastrophic its
population problem was solved for a few decades. Then they got hungry
again and the pattern started over.

``If Praes managed to get its population under control, it would no
longer have the manpower to invade Callow,'' I said. ``Balance is
broken. Anybody going against that loses, because they're going against
the entire pattern of the Empire.''

``Patterns cannot be broken,'' Black smiled. ``But they can be\ldots{}
transcended. Names themselves can be transitory.''

``The Empire doesn't need the manpower to invade Callow, if Callow is
part of the Empire,'' I breathed. ``Truly part of the Empire, not just a
conquered territory.''

Black and Malicia -- for I could not believe that the Dread Empress was
not up in this to her neck -- had spent decades adjusting the Empire so
that it would match that state. A small, permanent professional army
instead of the hordes and mass rituals of old. Praesi ruling Callowan
cities, Callowans in Praesi institutions like the Legions of Terror.
Focus on common external enemies like the Principate while slowly and
quietly smothering the racism in the bureaucracy to pave the way for
integration. Gods, I'd been raised in Laure and my first instinct in
looking for protection from Governor Mazus had not been heroes, it had
been the local Legion garrison. And to bind the marriage, a Callowan
girl in an old Praesi Name. \emph{Me.}

My blood ran cold. This was a plan decades in the making, brilliant and
utterly ruthless. My first panicked instinct was to ruin it by any way I
could. Could I kill Black, here and now? Did he trust me enough that he
wouldn't see the strike coming? No, that wouldn't even stop it. Malicia
would carry on regardless, and there was no touching her. If I stood
against the Empire now, I would do it without any of the resources I'd
spent the last year accumulating -- the Fifteenth would balk at
rebellion when I couldn't even give them a reason they'd be happy with.

I slowed my heartbeat with a long breath, sharply aware of the pale
green eyes studying me. If this worked, what would be the end result?
What would happen to Callow? The Imperial Governorship system made
permanent, most likely, and spread even further by the lands that would
be confiscated as soon as the current rebellion was over. Too many
nobles were participating, there'd be only a handful of baronies left
west of the Duchy of Daoine. And the Duchy itself, I supposed, but that
barely counted as Callow. Even under the Kingdom it had been an
independent nation in all but name.

On the other hand, the cycle would be done. Over with. No more
invasions, no more fire and brimstone coming from the East to lay waste
to Callow. The thought of that was horribly, horribly tempting. But not
of it came at the cost of killing everything that made Callow what it
was. \emph{They need me for this}, I realized. I was more than a
possible replacement for Black, should he die or be put aside. I was, in
truth, the keystone to what they were trying to build. The proof of
concept it was possible at all. And that meant I had leverage. I rested
against the back of the ramshackle chair, feeling my leg twinge in pain.
Forcing my hands to stop shaking, I met Black's eyes unflinchingly.
Hadn't this been my plan from the beginning? Enter the ranks, and
influence the institution from the inside. Praes was seeking to change
Callow, but Callow could change Praes as well. Already my mind was
spinning with half a dozen ways to steer this the way I wanted it to go.
The way I \emph{needed} it to go.

``I won't just let the Empire swallow Callow whole,'' I told Black,
ignoring the voice in the back of my head that told me that sentence
preceded my head rolling on the floor.

``Then don't,'' he shrugged. ``Preserve what you believe should be
preserved. Change what you believe needs to be changed. If you judge it
necessary to end the governorship system, do so. If you think tributary
status for duchies like with Daoine will be the most stable option, do
so. As long as the right banner flies, as long as we look at the same
enemies, I have no objections.''

And he really didn't, I knew. He could have been lying, but there was a
weight in my bones that put paid to that notion. This was a pivot, or
something close to it. As long as what Black considered his victory
condition was met, he genuinely did not care what the state of Callow
was.

``I don't understand you,'' I half-cursed, half-admitted. ``This isn't
about being a patriot. You don't really think Praesi are better than
anyone else -- Hells, most of the time you act like you'd set half the
people in the Wasteland on fire given a good pretext. You do these
things, like the Reforms or keeping fuckers like Mazus in check, that
\emph{look} like they're Good -- but they're not, not really. Tools, you
call them, but tools are used to make something. What do you
\emph{want}, Black?''

Languidly, the green-eyed man finished the last of his wine.

``Do you know what the most common symbol for the struggle between Good
and Evil is? On Calernia, that is,'' he specified.

A child could have answered that.

``A shatranj board,'' I said. ``The so-called Game of the Gods.''

``I've always hated that image,'' he spoke mildly. ``It implies
equality. That equivalent forces are arrayed on both sides of the
board.''

``Aren't there?'' I frowned. ``Balance, you've said it yourself.''

``And yet,'' he murmured, ``Good always wins.''

As if he could feel me about to object, he raised his hand.

``We don't get real victories, Catherine. Oh, we usurp a throne for a
few years. Or win a handful of battles. Once in a while, we even win a
war and stay on top long enough for people to believe we are
unbeatable.''

His eyes turned hard.

``Then the heroes come.''

I'd seen many sides to this man, since I had first met him. I'd seen him
cold and vicious, on the night he'd made a game of Mazus for my
edification. I'd seen his face turn into an emotionless clay mask and
humanity slide off his face like droplets, on the day he'd Spoken to me.
Once I'd even seen him shaken, when the Tower had received a Red Letter.
But the look he had on his face now I had only glimpsed once before,
when I'd quoted the Book of All Things on the subject of fate. There was
an old, implacable anger to his frame. For the first time in my life, I
understood why people called becoming angry `getting mad'. There was a
madness in him now, nearly visible to the eye. That should have scared
me but perhaps there was some of it in me too, some orphan slip of a
girl who believed she could snatch a nation from the jaws of wolves and
make it her own.

``It doesn't matter how flawless the scheme was, how impregnable the
fortress or powerful the magical weapon,'' he said. ``It always ends
with a band of adolescents shouting utter platitudes as they tear it all
down. The game is rigged so that we lose, every single time.''

He smiled at me, a dark sardonic thing.

``Half the world, turned into a prop for the glory of the other half.''

The worst of it, I thought, was that I intimately understood where he
was coming from. I still had the image burned into my eyelids of the
Lone Swordsman effortlessly cutting his way through a full line of my
men on his way to me, making a mockery of every skill I'd earned with
his and battering down the strength of my Name with the superior might
of his own. It had stung, when I'd realized how\ldots{} easy that had
all been for him. That if Warlock hadn't stepped in I'd be dead, and all
my friends with me. It had felt like he'd been chosen to win before the
fight had ever started. Even Hunter, who'd failed to be my equal but had
simply \emph{refused to go down}. All the things that had made heroes
heroic when I was a child had become infuriating now.

``Ah, you've had a taste of it yourself,'' he murmured. ``How much worse
it must be, coming from a culture that still teaches you you can win. We
don't even have that, Catherine. The hope of the happy ending. We get to
cackle on the way down the cliff, or maybe curse our killer with our
last breath. You've read the stories, and stories are the lifeblood of
Names.''

``Villains aren't powerless,'' I said.

He laughed. ``Oh, if the heroes deserved their victories against us, I
would make my peace with it. But they don't, do they? Your sullen little
nemesis gets to swing an angel's feather, while you make do with steel
and wiles. That's always the way of it. At the last moment they're
taught a secret spell by a dead man, or your mortal weakness is revealed
to them or they somehow manage to master a power in a day that would
take a villain twenty years to own. Gods, I've even heard of Choirs
stepping in to settle a losing fight. The \emph{sheer fucking arrogance
of it}.''

The second time I'd ever heard him swear, and it surprised me as much as
the last. Teeth bared, he leaned forward.

``None of it is earned. It is handed to them, and this offends me.''

And when a villain disliked an aspect of Creation, they broke it\emph{.}
As simple as that. Of all the things that being a villain entailed I had
grasped this one the easiest. What that said about me, I preferred not
to think about.

``You asked me what I want,'' Black said. ``This once, just this once, I
want us to \emph{win}.''

The smile across his face was a cutting, vicious thing.

``To spit in the eyes of the Hashmallim. To trample the pride of all
those glorious, righteous princes. To scatter their wizards and make
their oracles liars. Just to prove that it can be done.''

There was something his eyes burning like coals and embers.

``So that five hundred years from now, a band of heroes shiver in the
dark of night. Because they know that no matter how powerful their sword
or righteous their cause, there was once a time \emph{it wasn't enough}.
That even victories ordained by the Heavens can broken by the will of
men.''

A heartbeat passed and then he sagged into his seat, as if the words had
drained something. The embers in his eyes cooled. I sat in my rickety
chair, and thought. A long moment passed.

``Monster,'' I finally said.

A single word, carrying with it the faint memory of fear and a dark
alley. Of a black cloak warming my frame on a cold night. It felt like
an offered hand.

His lips twitched into something almost a smile. ``The very worst
kind,'' he replied.

A hand clasped. I closed my eyes, and wondered whether I'd just saved my
homeland or sold it.

I did not get much sleep that night.
