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\chapter{Solved Game}\label{chapter-70-solved-game}}
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\epigraph{``Beware of they who laud war, for one who loves the locust cannot
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love the crop.''}{Extract from the transcript of the `Sermon of the Shores', as spoken
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by Sister Salienta}
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Usually the Twilight Ways were a beautiful place, but this time they
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were as a sea of the wounded and dying.
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We did what we could. What few mages were still capable of casting spent
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themselves raw in the healer tents, the healers among the House
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Insurgents moved wearily from one half-corpse to another and I demanded
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the same of every Named that could still move. Tariq, looking himself a
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step into the grave, moved tirelessly even and he grew more and more
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wan. Masego -- borrowing the last gasps of the Summoner's sorcery --
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taught the Apprentice emergency surgery on the most brutal of the beds,
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snatching the slightest sparks of life and fanning them back to a flame.
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Even Akua, though some refused her help and I had to surround her with a
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protective detail. I went as well, of course. With Night little more
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could be done than delaying death, but that served a purpose.
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Every hour meant one more priest Light was no longer burning up from the
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inside, one more mage whose limbs ceased trembling enough for them to be
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able to cast. I couldn't save them, for Night would ever be the power of
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a thief, but I could steal them enough hours that someone else might be
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able to. Time grew clouded, the kind of mist where one could get lost
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for a lifetime going around in circles, and I went from blood to blood.
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Soldiers with faces chewed off, with limbs ripped and bones that'd
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pierced through the skin. And the screams, Gods, the \emph{screams}. I
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pulled out poison and curses, slowed the flow of blood to a crawl and
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forced hearts to keep beating, Night coming to my hand sharp and steady.
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I lost myself to the beat, knowing that General Zola and Adjutant would
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see to the needs of the Second without me.
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It was only when the power grew sluggish in my hands, when my weave
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slipped and I almost drew poison into a young goblin's heart instead out
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of his veins, that I forced myself to stop. Night didn't heal in the
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intuitive manner that Light did so any mistake on my part was likely to
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kill the wounded involved. I limped away after passing my patient to a
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priest who couldn't be older than seventeen -- \emph{I} \emph{have taken
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a generation of my people to war}, I grieved, \emph{harvested them like
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a farmer reaping wheat} -- and leaning heavily on my staff. My leg
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throbbed so harshly I felt like I might weep, and now that I had
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released Night my vision was swimming. One of the phalanges, who'd been
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following me like loyal hounds all night, came close to offer me an arm
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to lean on. I gestured curtly for her to leave me be.
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I forced myself to ignore the moans and weeping from the tents, the
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soldiers that would not be saved because we did not have enough left in
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us to save them. The wind kept carrying them to my ear, though, and so
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further and further away I went. I found a grassy hill, past the
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outskirts of the camp, where I slowly slumped into the cool blades of
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grass. Faintly I saw the phalanges beginning a watch around me, but they
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were not obvious and I made myself not notice them. I leaned in the
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grass, staff at my side, and looked up at the twilit sky of this strange
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realm we still understood so very little. I rested my eyes but did not
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sleep. I was, somehow, too tired for it. I couldn't be sure how long I
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stayed like this, but eventually I heard footsteps coming up the hill.
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\emph{Not Hakram}, I thought, and immediately felt guilty. If the
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phalanges had not gotten in the way there was nothing to worry of, so my
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eyes remained closed.
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I was only when they lowered themselves into the grass by my side and
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groaned in pain that I recognized who it was. Tariq's joints were, I had
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gathered, sometimes even worse than my own bad leg. Not even the favour
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of angels could entirely protect one from the ravages of time: the Grey
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Pilgrim was as perfectly hale as one of his advanced age could be, but
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he was still very much that age. Heroes didn't get to cheat aging the
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way my side did, forever frozen at the apex of our growth and power.
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``The Apprentice has retired as well,'' the Peregrine said. ``Though the
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Hierophant continues. He is a young man of remarkable willpower.''
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I half-smiled.
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``He is more mind than body,'' I said. ``Always has been.''
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I suspected it would appeal to him a great deal, to become entirely an
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intellect and be stripped of all the weaknesses and needs of the flesh.
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The smile faded soon enough, though. I could not hear the wounded from
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here, the wind prevented it, but I could imagine it so vividly only
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concentration kept their cries from reaching my ears.
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``There is no other army like this,'' the Grey Pilgrim eventually said.
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``I have seen many battles, Queen Catherine, but none ever spared so
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much thought to keeping its own alive.''
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I would not claim to be the spirit behind that, not when all I had done
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was imitate the Legions of Terror while being in the position to recruit
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priests as well.
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``There's always too many dead,'' I tiredly replied. ``Always, Tariq.
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Even when we win.''
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The old man laughed, and while amusement would have infuriated me there
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was not a trace of that in the sound: there was enough grief in the
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sound to drown a dozen men.
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``There are some foes that cannot be won against, Catherine,'' the Grey
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Pilgrim said. ``All we can do is worry our hands to the bone and bury
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the dead, hoping we saved as many as we could have.''
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\emph{This isn't a plague}, I thought. \emph{It's not the banal
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malevolence of the world that killed them, Tariq. I brought them here. I
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led them to this place, so far from every home they ever knew, so they
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could die for strangers. For a greater good.} And so they'd come, and so
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they'd fought, and so they'd died. In droves, scared and in pain. Some
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of their bodies, those we'd not been quick enough to burn, we would see
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again standing under the banners of Keter.
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``I used to hate you a little,'' I quietly said, ``for that night in
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Callow. The one where you refused to help me as we stood at the
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crossroads of the things to come.''
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The old man did not speak, but even with closed eyes I felt him bend as
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if under a great weight.
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``But,'' I continued, ``I think I understand it better now, why the
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thought of sitting the Tattered Throne so terrified you.''
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\emph{All hail Queen Catherine Foundling}, they'd said as they put the
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crown on my head\emph{. First of Her Name, anointed Queen of Callow.} I
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was a warlord on a queen's seat, my boots still dusty from the road and
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my sword reeking of blood, but in that room where Fairfaxes and Albans
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had ruled they'd anointed me. And my people had followed me into horror
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ever since, unflinching. And my legend, my story -- my lie -- it was a
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young one. I had been a glimpse of spring after a long winter, and so
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more hopes than I deserved to bear had been set on my brow. Tariq
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Isbili's legend was old, older than even this old man, and it was dyed
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in the bone of what it meant to be of the Dominion of Levant. My people
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had, in the years after the Folly, followed me into the dark without
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flinching.
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Levant would have followed the Peregrine into anything at all, even if
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it shattered them to follow.
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``Even your kindness bruises,'' Tariq finally replied, after a long
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silence passed.
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I inclined my head in concession, as he was not wrong.
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``One day I'll ask too much of them,'' I said, my tone announcing the
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subject was at a close.
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I was not certain what scared me more: that on that day they would
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refuse me at last, or that they \emph{wouldn't}. In a rough pang, I
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missed Vivienne. She would have understood, I thought. In a way that no
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one else could, not even the rest of the Woe.
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``Or one day they'll asks too much of you,'' the Peregrine replied, tone
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strangely gentle.
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We left it at that, the two of staying in silence in the grass, until at
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last I fell asleep.
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---
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I woke to a warm meal and mug of tea, Adjutant's wheelchair wedged into
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the slope of the hill at my side and the Grey Pilgrim nowhere in sight.
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Hakram let me shake off the last dregs of sleep at my own pace, only
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beginning to speak once I'd dug into the porridge and warmed my bones
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with the herbal brew.
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``General Zola has the casualty reports,'' he said.
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It was almost enough to put me off eating, but I'd found after a few
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mouthfuls that I was positively starving. I still set down the spoon,
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blowing at the steam coming off my tea.
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``How bad?'' I quietly asked.
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``One thousand nine hundred and seventy four dead.''
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He'd not cushioned the blow, which I appreciated. My fingers clenched
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around the mug, the too-warm ceramic burning my skin. I pushed through
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the pain. Almost two thousand dead. A fifth of the Second Army had died
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at Maillac's Boot.
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``Permanent wounded?''
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``Seventy one,'' Adjutant said. ``Between Masego and the Peregrine there
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was little that could not be mended. Mind sicknesses, mostly, come from
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head wounds that themselves were healed.''
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I breathed out, relieved. In this, at least, we had been exceptional. It
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was rarer than rubies for an army to be able to walk away with so many
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fatalities but so few casualties. I drank down tea, still digesting the
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scope of what we'd lost. It wasn't the outright one third that just
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retreating through the gates without preliminaries would have cost us,
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and we'd certainly mauled the armies that'd assailed us badly --
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something that we wouldn't have accomplished with a premature retreat --
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but a fifth of losses was not something to be shrugged off. The Second
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Army as it was right now, should it be made to fight the battle we'd
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just fought, might fold before the second wave even arrived.
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As an independent force, it was now too dangerous to let it fight a peer
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army. It'd need to be paired with another set of troops, preferably one
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that could soak up most of the deaths for my soldiers. \emph{And we'll
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have lost veteran officers}, I thought. \emph{Sappers and mages and
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other specialists I can't replace.} The heart of the Army of Callow and
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its component armies remained the infantry trained in the Legion methods
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and those I could still recruit, but all the specialized troops that
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allowed the Army to maul superior forces were either difficult or
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outright impossible to replace. Like the goblin munitions that'd allowed
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me to seize so many victories from the jaws of defeat, they were slowly
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running out.
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``We got bled deep,'' I finally said.
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``And made our foes pay high price for every drop,'' Adjutant gravelled
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back. ``Every corpse we put to final rest at the Boot is one that we
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won't be facing at the capital.''
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It was true, though I still felt like arguing. Instead I polished off
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the rest of my porridge, that eternal legionary's fare. The tea was not
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far behind. Hakram's continued silence did not go unnoticed. I glanced
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at him, finding his face hard to read, and frowned.
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``So what is it that you decided to sit on until I got through
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my\ldots{}'' I trailed off, unsure how much time had passed and so what
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meal this was.
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``Early breakfast,'' he provided. ``And it is not necessarily a problem,
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Catherine, though the situation will require careful handling.''
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My frown deepened.
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``Not army-related,'' I decided, ``or at least not principally. So this
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related to my other authority.''
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High officer of the Grand Alliance, representative for the villains
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under the Truce and Terms.
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``Someone came into a Name during the battle,'' Hakram said.
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Huh. I supposed it'd been brutal enough a grinder to provide that spark,
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given the right materials to work with.
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``Brandon Talbot?'' I guessed.
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He stood at the alignment of a couple of stories, if you looked at it
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the right way. Old blood, valiant in battle, about as principled as a
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nobleman could be while still being a nobleman. Back in Callow there was
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still a lot of faith bound to what he represented, in certain parts. I'd
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not caught scent of anything forming there, but sometimes the final
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stretch of coming into a Name could be quite sudden.
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``No,'' Adjutant said. ``Though from the Order of the Broken Bells. A
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young man who was unhorsed during the countercharge near the shallows
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and made it back to the ranks on foot after that flank retreated,
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gathering other survivors to him.''
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Huh. Fair enough, I supposed. Crows knew it wasn't always the old names
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that got the nod from Above or Below.
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``What are we looking at?'' I asked.
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``Sixteen, from Laure. Raised at an orphanage before being recruited
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into the Order three years back,'' Hakram said. ``I'm still finding out
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which. His name is Arthur Foundling.''
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I froze in surprise. Foundling. It'd been a long time since I'd last
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heard that surname tacked on to anyone but me. Yet I had no sole claim
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to it, as Creation had just deemed it right to remind me. An orphan,
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huh. I wasn't sure whether that had me wistful or troubled. Then one
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last detail sunk in.
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``Sixteen,'' I slowly repeated. ``That means he's still\ldots{}''
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``A squire,'' Adjutant gravelled. ``\emph{The} Squire, as of
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yesterday.''
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I softly laughed, though there was little mirth to the sound. It seemed
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Above and Below had at last decided that I'd strayed far enough from the
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last Name I'd held that another had been allowed to fill those worn old
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boots. \emph{Fuck}, I thought. A Squire. That complicated things. Not
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necessarily immediately, but certainly down the line. It wasn't even
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directly relating to me: while I didn't even know which way the boy was
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leaning at the moment, either way I had no intention of falling into the
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trap of offering more than cursory mentorship. Yet a squire, as Malicia
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had once told me, must one day become a knight. And my people, we liked
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our knights. Sang songs about them, told stories. Followed them into
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battle.
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Sometimes we even put crowns on their heads.
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Sixteen, I considered. Vivienne was older, but not by \emph{that} much.
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If this Arthur Foundling became the figurehead or even the genuine
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leader of a force within the Kingdom of Callow, marriage to cement her
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place on the throne wouldn't necessarily be impossible. I might be
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looking too far ahead, worrying about things that might never come to
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pass, but my succession was not something I intended to leave to chance.
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I clenched my fingers. If he became a threat\ldots{} God forgive me, but
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I'd killed boys of sixteen before. It might not come to that, I reminded
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myself. Yet this stank of the Heavens staking their claim on my home
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again, and I did not like the shape of it at all.
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``What did the phalanges dig up on him?'' I asked.
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``His past is a dead end, but we have people in the Order,'' Hakram
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said. ``Popular with the other squires, considered reckless by the
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knights. The knightess he squired under died at the Boot, and there's
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been talk of him swearing the oaths to Brandon Talbot instead.''
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``Not happening,'' I flatly said.
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I liked the grandmaster, but he'd also been part of the Regals -- an
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ill-fated noble faction at my court -- before I dismantled them. House
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Talbot had ruled Marchford as counts once, and had been distinguished
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among the upper tiers of the Callowan nobility for their wealth and
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ancient blood. Even stripped of lands and riches, Sir Brandon still had
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deep connections with parts of the kingdom's nobility that'd never taken
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to my rule. \emph{And might object to my handpicked successor taking the
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throne after me, highborn or not.}
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``The chatter did not come from Talbot himself, who instead noted that
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being Named places him foremost under the authority of the Truce and
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Terms,'' Hakram clarified.
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Mhm. Admirably restrained of him, though I wasn't sure if his hopes
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would truly toe that line. Talbot knew where my bottom line lay, though,
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and what the consequences of crossing it would be. That'd keep him in
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check for a while.
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``Personal life?'' I asked.
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``He was involved with another squire, who died in the retreat,''
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Adjutant said. ``The other boy was highborn -- House Bickham, landed
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knights formerly sworn to Dormer. Poor and only nobility for a
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generation prior to the Conquest.''
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I grimaced, both at the generous heaping of grief that Fate had seen fit
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to offer Arthur Foundling and an inconvenient detail just revealed.
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``Do we know if he keeps to only men?'' I asked.
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``Unsure,'' Hakram admitted.
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``Find out,'' I ordered. ``It would close some doors.''
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Like the possibility of Vivienne wedding him, should it come to that.
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Dynastic marriages along those lines had happened before, but they had
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poor reputations for a reason and issue would be, well, an issue.
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``Vivienne,'' Adjutant slowly said, seeing right through me. ``That's
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putting the cart two towns ahead of the horse, I'd argue.''
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``We're far from a situation where it would even be considered,'' I
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agreed, ``but I want all angles accounted for.''
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He nodded. I sighed, stretching my arms.
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``I'll have to take his measure in person as well,'' I said. ``And
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speaking of measure.''
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I glanced at him with a quirked eyebrow.
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``General Zola has proved competent in discharging her duties, though
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not exceptional,'' Adjutant said. ``Some minor mistakes, all of them
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swiftly corrected.''
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``She's been in command for less than a day and got promoted halfway
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through a battle after her predecessor got assassinated,'' I flatly
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said. ``She'll settle into the rank, Hakram.''
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``I'm not impugning her abilities,'' the orc calmly replied. ``I'm
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trying to temper your expectations, Catherine. She promises to be a
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solid commander with a good grasp on logistics, but she will not be
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Hune. She'll be another Bagram, not the kind of rare talents we picked
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up early in our career.''
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My fingers clenched. Hune's reputation was not as widespread as
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Juniper's -- the Marshal of Callow had been the face of the military
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under my reign, and been visibly tied to my campaigns since the first
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days of the Fifteenth -- but it could not be denied she had been highly
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talented. It had not been without reason she'd been the second highest
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officer in the Army of Callow. I jerkily nodded.
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``I'll keep that in mind,'' I said. ``And I do have a curiosity,
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actually.''
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I tapped my temple lightly instead of asking the question outright. That
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Zola Osei had Soninke highborn eyes -- more amber than golden, but then
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the gold was relatively rare -- had not escaped my notice.
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``Sister of the current Lord Osei, sworn to High Lord Dakarai of Nok,''
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Hakram said. ``Not an old line, but they've been in favour for some time
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and married well. She was on the losing side of the succession conflict
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after her father died, and she enrolled in the Legions to avoid assassin
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blades. Used to be General Afolabi's supply tribune, it was us that
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promoted her to legate.''
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The last part didn't particularly surprise me, all things told. One of
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the great enticements we'd had for the officers of the legions we
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absorbed after Akua's Folly was that the Army of Callow was so starved
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for veteran hands that any officer that went over was nearly guaranteed
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to go up at least a rank. The Legions of Terror in the decade leading to
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the Uncivil Wars had been relatively slow to promote, too, so the
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temptation had been even stronger.
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``Dakarai is Sepulchral's main supporter, so we'll have to keep an eye
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on that tie,'' I said. ``She might not be in a position to cause us
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trouble, at the moment, but that doesn't mean her alliance won't try to
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get hooks into the Army of Callow.''
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While I was broadly inclined to back Sepulchral over Malicia, I had no
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illusions about the kind of viper I was dealing with. I'd known Abreha
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Mirembe when she was still merely High Lady of Aksum, and back then
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she'd already been shockingly coldblooded even by Praesi standards.
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Having an eye on the Tower would not improve her character in the
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slightest.
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``It will be looked into,'' Adjutant said. ``We inherited the work the
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Eyes put in her, but I will get in touch with Scribe when feasible to
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see if she might have additional insights.''
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``Good,'' I said, groaning as I dragged myself up.
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My rest had been, as always, all too short. I stilled, though, when I
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caught sight of Hakram's face. I liked to think I knew him the way few
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people did -- he was, even now, perhaps the person I was closest to in
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all of Creation -- and I'd certainly gotten better at reading him over
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the years. Earlier he'd delayed giving me news on purpose, but now his
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silence was different. He was, I thought, hesitating.
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``There's something else,'' I said.
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``It is not news,'' Hakram said. ``Not like the others.''
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I slowly nodded.
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``And yet?''
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He licked his chops, still uncertain.
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``Masego says that the leg prosthetic has taken well,'' Hakram said.
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``He still requires a few days of observation, but he is considering
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accelerating the timetable for further cuttings.''
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``The hip,'' I said.
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``I could walk,'' he said. ``By the time we get to Hainaut. Not well,
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not quickly, and only with crutches but\ldots{}''
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``You could walk,'' I finished with a soft smile.
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He nodded, almost as if at a loss for words.
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``I just wanted you to know,'' Adjutant said.
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We took our time going down the hill, between his wheelchair and my
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limp, but I found the silence between us lighter than it had been in
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some time.
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---
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I needed to take exactly one look at Arthur Foundling to know he was
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going to be a hero.
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The boy was almost offensively heroic in appearance, like some higher
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power had taken the mould of `young hero' straight of out Callowan
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culture and poured materials into it. Dark-haired and blue-eyed, with an
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angular face and strong shoulders, I could already see he was going to
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grow into a handsome man. He knelt before me after being ushered into
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the tent, sheathed sword scraping at the ground from the haste of his
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movement. With a touch of amusement, I saw his jaw twitch from a
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suppressed wince. Still, after a moment of taking him in I decided he
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looked\ldots{} gaunt. Tired. Grieving. He'd lost a mentor and a lover
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the same say, Adjutant had told me. Under the composure, I suspected
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there laid a roiling ball of pain and anger.
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``Rise,'' I said.
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The young man did, this time careful not to drag his sheath on the
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ground. He looked unsure, jaw locked tight. He had, I realized in a
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moment of bone-deep sympathy, likely not been taught the etiquette
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involved in a royal audience.
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``Which orphanage raised you?'' I casually asked.
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He started in surprise.
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``Er,'' Arthur Foundling got out, ``It was Queen Mary's Home for Errant
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Boys, Your Majesty.''
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I laughed out in disbelief.
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``Wait, you're from \emph{Queenie's}?'' I said. ``They try to make all
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their wards into scribes and priests. Gods, do they still have that
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crabby old sister? I can't remember her name-``
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``Sister Jessica's still alive, as far as I know,'' the squire said, in
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the tone of someone trying very hard not to speak ill of the clergy.
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``She, uh, did not approve of my joining the Order.''
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I wondered how he'd react if I told him that said Sister Jessica had
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once rapped me on the knuckles thrice with a stick for having thrown a
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snowball in her face. I'd actually been aiming at this little shit who'd
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kicked in the wall of our fort three streets up, but I'd missed him and
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she'd opened the door just then. She'd had a pretty sharp hand for an
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old lady, it'd stung for several days. \emph{Hells, she must be pushing
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seventy by now.}
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``Our matron at the House would have sent me to the cathedral for
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remedial moral education if she'd known I wanted to go to the War
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College,'' I drily told him.
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I'd never found out who it was at my orphanage that was the spy --
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honestly, knowing Black there'd probably been several -- for the Empire,
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but it'd not been her. My orphanage had been founded and founded by
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Praes, but the matron herself had not answered directly to any Praesi.
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The dark-haired boy looked at me hungrily at my words, like he was
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drowning and I'd just tossed him a rope.
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``It's true, then?'' Arthur Foundling said. ``Your Majesty. That you
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came from Tit -- from the House for Tragically Orphaned Girls?''
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``You can call it Tittering House,'' I snorted. ``Nothing I haven't
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heard before.''
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The boy's orphanage down the street -- not Queenie's, which was in
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another quarter entirely, but the Laure Shelter for Forsaken Boys -- had
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coined the nickname, warranting the reprisal of theirs being called
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Flaccid Shelter.
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``You really did,'' the boy said, tone almost awed. ``I mean, the
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stories said, but they say so many things\ldots{}''
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\emph{Fuck}, I thought. I'd known, on parchment, that there would be
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similarities. That they might pull on my heartstrings some. Yet I'd
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honestly believed it'd be easy to ignore, to set aside. Instead I was
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looking at a boy who might grow up into a threat to the legacy I meant
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to leave behind and seeing a shade of myself at sixteen, all bruised
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knuckles and fresh out of the orphanage gates.
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``It's true,'' I said. ``But it's not me we're here to talk about.''
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His face locked up tight. I wondered, idly, if that was what I'd looked
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like when Black was talking to me back in the day. Always straddling
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hopeful and afraid, guarding my own thoughts so fiercely I might as well
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have worn them on my sleeves.
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``I know about the Truce and Terms, Your Majesty,'' Arthur Foundling
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said.
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``No,'' I bluntly replied. ``You just think you do. Unless I'm very
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mistaken, you're leaning the way of the Heavens-``
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``I'm not a \emph{heretic},'' the boy said, sounding miffed.
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``- which means you're going to be in an inconvenient situation,'' I
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finished, cocking an eyebrow at the interruption.
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His face blanked again, but he did not apologize. I could appreciate a
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spine, so long as he understood when he was overstepping.
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``As a heroic Named, you representative under the Terms will be the
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White Knight,'' I said.
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He did not well hide his surprise. I got where he was coming from, of
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course. A Callowan hero grown in the wilds would not have considered
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themselves bound to me save perhaps in enmity, but this one had been a
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squire in my own knightly order for three years. He wouldn't be seeing
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this in terms of hero and villain -- I was both his queen and an older
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Named, in his eyes I would have been the natural authority. Perhaps not
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one entirely trusted or obeyed, but undeniably an authority.
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``You're the Queen of Callow, though, Your Majesty,'' he hesitantly
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said.
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``Yes, and unless you intend to renounce your oaths as a knight of the
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|
Order of Broken Bells-'' I paused there, and he empathically shook his
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head, ``then I still remain your commander. Hence the inconveniences.
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|
For now the troubles are minor, but once we rejoin with our sister host
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I will have to speak with the White Knight about this.''
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My eyes narrowed and I studied the boy.
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``You have intentions,'' I said.
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|
The Squire paled, his limbs stilled, but he did not deny it. He would
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|
not have come into a Name if there had not been something burning in his
|
|
belly, and we both knew it.
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|
``I thought I knew where my life was headed,'' he bitterly said. ``And
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|
now Sir Alexis is dead and\ldots{}''
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His lips thinned and he held his tongue.
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``You've been looked into,'' I gently said. ``We know about your
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lover.''
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``I had hoped to keep that grief my own,'' Arthur Foundling said.
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|
And for a moment, as his face grew solemn, I glimpsed the make of a
|
|
Knight in him. The potential was there. Whether it made him a boon or a
|
|
danger, though had yet to be decided.
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|
``That possibility went up in smoke,'' I honestly said, ``the moment
|
|
when you became the Squire. You have eyes on you now, Arthur Foundling.
|
|
Your actions will have repercussions.''
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|
``I just wanted to be a knight,'' he tiredly replied. ``To bring back
|
|
the banners that the Praesi buried and you left in their grave, Your
|
|
Majesty.''
|
|
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|
Now was not the time, I thought, to have a conversation about the
|
|
difficulties inherent to assembling a large mounted force --
|
|
particularly one made up largely of lesser nobility whose allegiance to
|
|
me would vary between shaky and nominal -- in the Callow I'd come to
|
|
rule after the Doom of Liesse. Maybe one day, if the boy was destined to
|
|
be anything but a man on a horse very good at righteously killing
|
|
people, but not today. I was all the more wary of teaching him the way
|
|
Black had once taught me because I rather wanted to. I remembered what
|
|
it was like, standing in those shoes and feeling both more capable and
|
|
more lost than you'd ever been before.
|
|
|
|
Part of me itched to pass those lessons on the way they had been passed
|
|
to me, and that was a \emph{dangerous} thing.
|
|
|
|
``I left them there for a reason,'' I said, ``but that is a conversation
|
|
for another day.''
|
|
|
|
I drummed my fingers against the side of my staff thoughtfully. Best to
|
|
carefully control the amount of time I spent around this one.
|
|
|
|
``Adjutant will go over the details of the Truce and Terms with you,'' I
|
|
said, ``so that you may fully understand your rights and
|
|
responsibilities. Until then, you remain a squire in the Order of Broken
|
|
Bells.''
|
|
|
|
He pressed his fist against his heart in acknowledgement.
|
|
|
|
``You won't be swearing squire oaths to another knight until I have, at
|
|
the very least conferred with the White Knight over the matter,'' I
|
|
added. ``Your position is already too complicated for my tastes.''
|
|
|
|
``Yes, Your Majesty,'' he acknowledged.
|
|
|
|
``Good,'' I said. ``Then you are dismissed, Arthur Foundling.''
|
|
|
|
He bowed, but after straightening hesitated instead of leaving. I cocked
|
|
an eyebrow again.
|
|
|
|
``The stories,'' the boy said, ``they say you used to be the Squire as
|
|
well.''
|
|
|
|
``I was,'' I agreed, cocking my head to the side.
|
|
|
|
``So you had them too,'' Arthur said. ``The dreams, I mean.''
|
|
|
|
Huh. Name dreams already.
|
|
|
|
``I had dreams,'' I said, ``but likely not the same as you.''
|
|
|
|
Although, Hells, I'd been the last Squire hadn't I? Was he going to get
|
|
Name dreams from \emph{my} years bearing the Name? I was still alive,
|
|
but Black had been as well when I'd gotten glimpses of his life. Unless
|
|
he was going to get dreams from a Squire that'd been headed Above's way,
|
|
and I'd only gotten my father's career in my sleep because he'd been the
|
|
last Squire headed into a Name sworn to Below. I didn't actually have an
|
|
answer to that. Crows, it would have been effectively impossible to get
|
|
answers about this a few years ago: heroes and villains hadn't exactly
|
|
sat down for pleasant chats about the nature of Names, back before the
|
|
Truce and Terms.
|
|
|
|
They still didn't, honestly compelled me to admit, but at least the
|
|
thought was no longer so glaringly absurd.
|
|
|
|
``So you didn't dream about the sword, then?'' the Squire asked.
|
|
|
|
``Which sword?''
|
|
|
|
``The broken one,'' he hesitantly said. ``The pieces are in far places,
|
|
but always deep below water.''
|
|
|
|
I kept my face calm, though I felt a surge of both fury and indignation.
|
|
\emph{Fucking Hashmallim}, I cursed. Fucking Choir of Contrition and
|
|
their grubby meddling hands. I'd snapped the Penitent's Blade in dozens
|
|
of pieces and scattered some of them them as far as the Tyrian Sea, I
|
|
wasn't going to let that damned sword get reforged. Someone wielding it
|
|
anew had my death written all over it. I was going to have to talk to
|
|
Hierophant about the practicalities of expressing my displeasure there.
|
|
|
|
``I knew that sword before it was snapped,'' I said. ``It is best left
|
|
scattered, Arthur Foundling, lest you want Contrition to sink its hooks
|
|
into your soul.''
|
|
|
|
He didn't look like he entirely believed me, but my warning hadn't gone
|
|
into deaf ears either: the young squire had looked distinctly unenthused
|
|
at the notion of being bound to angels. This time he took his leave for
|
|
good, leaving me to lean against my desk with a conflicted look on my
|
|
face. The Squire seemed like a good kid, honestly. A little rough around
|
|
the edges, but it was nothing he couldn't grow into.
|
|
|
|
I hoped I wasn't going to have kill him, before this was all over.
|
|
|
|
---
|
|
|
|
On the first day the Second Army rested. On the second it marched, and
|
|
on the fifth we found the other column.
|
|
|
|
From there, I knew, there was only one place to go: the capital, where
|
|
it would all be won or lost.
|