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\section{Chapter 16: Trust}\label{chapter-16-trust}}
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\begin{quote}
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\emph{``Treason is more art than act.''}
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-Dread Emperor Traitorous
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\end{quote}
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I tightened the belt around Kilian's armour, leaning in to place a kiss
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on the side of her neck. I felt her smile as she grabbed her helmet,
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half-turning to catch my lips with her own. The metal of her legionary
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cuirass was cold but I could almost feel the heat and softness of her
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underneath -- it was all too easy to imagine the curves I'd taken such
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pleasure in unwrapping not an hour past under my hands again. She had
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such soft skin, for a soldier. The redhead withdrew to catch her breath
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and leant her forehead against mine.
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``If you start that again I'll be late for the briefing,'' she murmured.
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``Tempting,'' I admitted. ``But I suppose I'll have to let you go for
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now. You'll be back afterwards?''
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Her smile turned a touch wicked and she nudged my nose with her own,
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playfully biting my lip.
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``Can you think of a better way to work out all that tediousness?'' she
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asked.
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``I genuinely cannot,'' I mused, grabbing the helmet out of her hands
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and carefully sliding it over her head.
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She adjusted it so it wouldn't tangle her hair -- though her own pixie
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cut made that a trivial matter compared to the mess that my own long
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locks could turn into -- and I tied the straps together. The redhead
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turned to grin at me.
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``By your leave, Lady Squire?'' she teased.
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``Out,'' I smiled. ``Before I change my mind.''
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``Ma'am,'' she saluted with a grin, sashaying out of my tent.
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How she managed that while wearing fifteen pounds of metal was beyond
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me, but I wasn't above enjoying the sights. I waited until she was gone
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before turning to the wooden folding table that served as my desk and
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the two books still on it. Four days has passed since the evening Black
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had given them to me, and I still wasn't sure what his intent had been.
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The children's tales were, apparently, just that. There did not seem to
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be a hidden meaning to them. Oh, they were interesting enough on their
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own -- they were very different from the tales I'd been raised on -- but
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they weren't anything I couldn't have found in any bookstore in Ater.
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Unlike the other manuscript my teacher had not annotated it, though it
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was still in his handwriting. The lessons it taught were\ldots{}
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strange. There was a formula to most Callowan fairy tales, patterns that
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could be found if you looked. First the hero or heroine's character was
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established, then they were presented with a problem. A catalyst ignited
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the struggle against that problem, and the hero's fight changed them in
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some way. Through victory the resolution came, and the state of affairs
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for the future was established: the ever-famous happy ending, most of
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the time, though even Callow dabbled in the occasional tragedy.
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Praesi went at it differently. The initial stretch of the story, where
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Callowans would establish the virtues that would carry the hero through
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the story, was dedicated to establishing the ambition of the
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protagonists. A warlock who wanted to build a tower reaching the sky, a
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soldier wanting to conquer an invincible fortress. Never once were those
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ambitions spoken of as being overreaching hubris: the urge to be
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\emph{more} was always praised. One of my favourite tales as a child had
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been the Fearless Lass, a young girl who went out in the world to learn
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fear and after many misadventures only found it after she married a king
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and put a crown on her head. In Black's book, though, every single
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protagonist was born with that fear in them. The awareness that no
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matter how clever and powerful and ruthless they were, eventually they
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would be unmade. The stories all ended with defeat, either at the hands
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of a hero or by the betrayal of someone they loved. It was the opposite
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of a happy ending: there was no sense of permanence to it. Taghreb tales
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were particularly brutal in that regard, the most striking example being
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the story of ``The Well in the Sands''. A young tribeswoman trying to
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dig a well in the desert so her tribe would not die of thirst. After
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tricking rival raiders, stealing the gold of a Soninke lord and
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capturing a goblin to dig for her, she finally managed it. Her whole
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tribe drank -- and the morning after, found the well had gone empty.
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\emph{Victory, most fickle of friends}, the moral went.
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Was that what he was trying to make me understand? That eventually,
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villains always lost? \emph{Is that why you chose now of all times to
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pick a Squire, because war is knocking at the Empire's door?} Malicia
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certainly seemed to think so.
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My instincts told me there was more to it than that. That he'd given me
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a second book only made me more certain of it. There was a story to the
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other manuscript too, though not written in words. The first column that
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stretched across the pages was, I'd found, a series of population
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censuses undertaken by the Tower. Not all Tyrants had bothered to take
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those, so there were blind spots, but most of the Empire's span was
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covered. They were cross-referenced with the name of the Emperor or
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Empress who'd reigned at the time, and the wars they'd fought in --
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either civil ones or attempted invasions of their neighbours. The last
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column's meaning still eluded me. It measured an area in square miles,
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that dropped sharply after the reign of an early Dread Empress and then
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remained more or less the same. No hint was given as to what exactly it
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was supposed to mean. Still, there was at least one pattern easy enough
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to notice: all the most productive periods in Imperial history, when
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Tyrants had undertaken great building projects like the road network and
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the great forges in Foramen, had come in the wake of a lost war. The
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Tyrant who failed was overthrown or assassinated and their replacement
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put Praes in order for a few decades.
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So the Empire was easier to govern after getting losing wars. If that
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was true, then the implications were worrying. Praes hadn't lost a war
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since my teacher became the Black Knight, about forty years ago.
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\emph{But that would explain a lot.} When we'd had the war council with
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Istrid and Sacker, Black had said that the political situation in Ater
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made it impossible for Malicia to just recall Heiress regardless of the
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trouble she was causing. \emph{The Empire's getting harder to keep
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together.} I closed my eyes, sighed and killed the candle on my desk.
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That complicated my own plans a lot. If Praes collapsed into civil war,
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there was no certainty the Empress would come out on top. The Truebloods
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were racist aristocratic pricks but they weren't \emph{stupid}: they
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wouldn't pick a fight they didn't think they could win. Keeping Callow
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as a semi-independent vassal state under Malicia's Praes was one thing,
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but under someone like Heiress? No.~I'd rather raise a flag in rebellion
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than allow that. \emph{But if I did, would the Fifteenth follow me?}
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Parts of it would, I thought. Nauk, Hakram, likely Ratface. Kilian.
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Juniper, though\ldots{} Juniper believed in the Empire. Maybe not the
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people in it, but certainly the institution. And Aisha would follow her.
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Where Hune and Pickler stood in this remained to be seen.
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So far I'd been willing to take things slow, but that time looked like
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it was past. If civil war did erupt, I needed to be sure what I'd have
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to work with -- and that meant finding out where the loyalties of my
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officers lay. Black had told me start taking be the initiative, hadn't
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he? Start solving problems before they blew up in my face. Drumming my
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fingers on the hilt of my sword, I frowned. Well, there was at least one
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problem I could check on right now.
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---
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The tent where Hunter was kept had a full line of guards on it at all
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times, as did the chariot we kept him in when we were on the move. At
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least four legionaries were watching him sleep at all times, with orders
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to slit his throat the moment it looked like he was waking up. How much
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good that would actually do if the hero actually returned to
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consciousness was arguable, but the precaution had been so basic it
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seemed ridiculous to me not to take it. Masego checked on the spells
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keeping him asleep every morning and every night, checking them for
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lapses or imperfections -- not that there were likely to be any, given
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that they were Warlock's work. The legionaries saluted as I arrived,
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stepping aside to let me in. Apprentice himself was leaning over the
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sleeping form of Hunter, wearing the leather apron I'd first me him in
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above his riding robes. He was peering at what appeared to be empty
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space through his spectacles.
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``Masego?'' I prompted.
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``We have a problem,'' he, braids shaking as he turned towards me.
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My hand instantly dropped to my sword.
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``Not the Hunter,'' he spoke after a moment.
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I glared at him. ``Could have led with that,'' I said.
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He blinked in surprise. Social skills, I realized not for the first
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time, were not the mage's strong point.
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``Oh, I can see how that might have sounded alarming,'' he mused.
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``Funny.''
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``The spells are fine?'' I confirmed as patiently as I could.
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He waved airily. ``Yes, he won't be waking up anytime soon. Not that I'm
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not looking forward to handing him over to the representative from
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Refuge anyway.''
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Black had scryed me the day after our departure from Harper's Crossing
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to inform me he'd been in touch with the Lady of the Lake. She had not,
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in fact, sent a hero out to kill her old friend Warlock. She'd given
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specific instructions otherwise, actually, and was rather displeased
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Hunter wasn't in the Free Cities like he was supposed to be. She'd be
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sending another of her pupils to pick him up and bring him back to
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Refuge, where he'd be tried. My teacher had implied said trial wouldn't
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really be anything of the sort: the sole dispenser of justice in Refuge
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was the Lady of the Lake, and the only law she'd set down was \emph{do
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what I say}. I was looking forward to getting rid of the liability,
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though I would have much preferred for it to happen before we marched
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into war. I had an itch to take care of the risk permanently, but my
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instructions otherwise had been made very clear. It wasn't something I
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was willing to fight Black on, not for now. He'd maintained my
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authorization to put Hunter down if the hero was trying to escape, it
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would have to be enough.
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``A problem?'' I finally prompted.
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``Possibly,'' he hedged. ``I felt someone scrying earlier. Did you have
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one of your mages try to find the Silver Spears again?''
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``No,'' I frowned.
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Whatever means the mercenaries had using to shield themselves from
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Black's mages, it worked against mine too. I still ordered regular
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attempts, but that was before we moved out at dawn.
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``Didn't think so,'' he shrugged. ``It connected somewhere down south,
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anyway, so the direction was wrong.''
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My eyes sharpened. Callowans didn't field mages in armies the way the
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Legions did, and there was no indication the Countess Marchford had
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changed that habit. I did, however, know of someone in southern Callow
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who was bound to have brought a few with her.
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``Did you manage to listen in?''
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Masego shook his head, the silver trinkets woven into his hair catching
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torchlight as he did.
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``They used a modified formula and I only caught on just before they
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broke off contact,'' he explained. ``Good work, and subtle. I wouldn't
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have caught it if I weren't already examining the spells on our sleeping
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friend here.''
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I swore. It had been a given Heiress would have plants in the Fifteenth,
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no matter how good Hakram's screening process, but if one of them was a
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mage then it was worse than I'd thought. Passing word through physical
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messages was one thing and the time lapse meant I'd still have a degree
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of surprise on my side, but if she could check in regularly? She'd know
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exactly where we were and what we were up to. I doubted she was in a
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position to ambush us with her own troops, either physically or
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politically, but there were a hundred ways she could make a nuisance of
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herself.
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``I did, however,'' Masego continued, ``manage to ferret out where the
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connection was made on \emph{both} sides.''
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I smiled unpleasantly. ``You can find who was speaking to them?''
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``I can narrow down the area to about a dozen feet,'' Apprentice
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replied. ``The rest you'll have to find on your own, which shouldn't be
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too hard: a formula like that will require very specific equipment.''
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My fingers tightened around the grip of my sword. I opened the tent's
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flap and called one of legionaries closer.
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``Get me Hakram,'' I ordered. ``And tell him to assemble a full line.''
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I turned to Apprentice, who was eyeing me with a raised eyebrow over the
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rim of his spectacles.
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``Let's find our rat,'' I said.
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---
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``Blackspear clan,'' Hakram spat. ``Should have known. Not a spit of
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loyalty in that blood.''
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Two legionaries held down the struggling orc, snarling back when he
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showed his teeth. Masego already looked bored with the whole affair.
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He'd created a glowing red thread out of thin air after my adjutant and
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Lieutenant Tordis' line had arrived, following it all the way to one of
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the ten-man tents in Hune's kabili. All ten legionaries had been inside
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and they'd been made to stand at attention while we rifled through the
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insides. Tordis herself had found the polished metal circle covered in
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runes that had been used as focus for the scrying -- the spy had tried
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to run when he'd realized, but he'd been tackled down before he could
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make it even three feet away.
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``Return to your tent,'' I ordered the others. ``And don't speak a word
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of this to anyone. The whole matter is under seal, by my authority as
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the Squire.''
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The informant had been the sergeant of the tenth, as it turned out. Not
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a War College alumni, one of the legionaries from the regular
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recruitment camps. He'd kept that he was a mage under wraps, apparently,
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because he wasn't on the roster as one of Kilian's. I glanced at Hakram.
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``Let's take him somewhere private,'' I said. ``I have a few questions
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to ask Sergeant\ldots{}''
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``Asger,'' Tordis told me. ``Sergeant Asger.''
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Said sergeant seemed rather displeased at the idea of getting dragged
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out of sight and managed to wrench out a hand. He started an
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incantation, but I was having none of that: my armoured boot impacted
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his mouth and I heard his jaw break with a wrenching sound. The boot
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came down a second time and he was knocked out cold.
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``Apprentice,'' I spoke calmly. ``I'll need you to fix that jaw before
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we interrogate him.''
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The Soninke mage rolled his eyes. ``You sure you don't want to get a few
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more kicks in first?''
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I raised an eyebrow. ``No, but feel free if you are so inclined.''
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I saw Hakram's lips twitch from the corner of my eye and the legionaries
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who'd been holding down Asger picked him up, glancing in my direction
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for instructions. As it happened, there was a supply tent not too far
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away: my adjutant oversaw the informant's tying up and Masego set up a
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privacy ward without me needing to ask. Considering who'd raised him, I
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supposed it must have been habit by now. I ordered Tordis and her line
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to stand guard outside while Apprentice got to work fixing the
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sergeant's jaw enough that he could speak.
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``Do we know who he was talking to?'' Hakram gravelled.
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``Not for sure,'' I admitted. ``But he was talking south, and we both
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know who's down there.''
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He growled
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``One of these days,'' the tall orc bit out, ``I'm going to stand on
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that woman's grave and smile.''
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A common sentiment, that. Apprentice stepped away from Asger and nodded
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when I sent a questioning look his way. He leaned back against a crate
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of barley bread, to my surprise. I would have thought he'd want to be
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done with this as quickly as possible, but it looked like curiosity had
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won out this once. I stepped forward and kicked the prisoner awake. The
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orc came back with a hiss of pain, glaring at us hatefully.
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``Sergeant Asger,'' I spoke pleasantly. ``It has come to my attention
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that you've been engaging in unauthorized scrying rituals.''
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``No idea what you're talking about,'' he spat. ``I'm not even a mage.''
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``Masego?'' I prompted.
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The Warlock's son peered at the orc through his spectacles.
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``Definitely a mage,'' he noted. ``Though a fairly weak one. Orcs rarely
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produce casters of a decent calibre.''
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``And that's your first lie of the evening,'' I said in an even tone.
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``I'd advise you not to speak a second.''
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``Fuck you, Wallerspawn,'' he replied, baring his teeth.
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``Watch your godsdamned mouth,'' Hakram growled in Kharsum.
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``Look at you, \emph{human's pet},'' Asger mocked in the same. ``Another
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Howling Wolves slave serving the masters.''
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``You are a shame even on what passes for your clan,'' my adjutant
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retorted.
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``Yeah, let's spit on the Blackspears again,'' the sergeant laughed.
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``It's done well for you lot, hasn't it? Wolves and Red Shields and
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Waxing Moons -- favourites of the Praesi, even those who \emph{play} at
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being Praesi.''
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Howling Wolves for Hakram, Red Shields for Juniper and Waxing Moons for
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Nauk. Was he really throwing a fit because there was no Blackspear clan
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member in my senior officers? It wasn't like there weren't any high
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placed officers belonging to them period -- Morok was a Blackspear and
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he was a tribune in the Fourteenth, last I heard.
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``You're not here because of what clan you were born to,'' I broke in,
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before the situation could degenerate even further. ``You're here
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because you've been passing information to Heiress' people.''
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``Allegedly,'' Masego said. ``It has not yet been established as fact.''
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I shot him a quelling look. Now was not the time to get pedantic on me.
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``May you kill each other and spare us your work,'' Asger, pausing only
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to spit in the dirt.
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He was not, I noted, denying it.
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``Who was your contact on the other side?'' I asked.
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``Your mother, Wallerspawn,'' he mocked.
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``I'm an orphan, actually,'' I informed him. ``That said, I don't have
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all night to indulge you.''
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I took a deep breath and reached for the wellspring of power inside of
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me. The beast opened its eyes, coiling around me and baring its fangs.
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``\textbf{Tell me},'' I Spoke.
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Asger tried to keep his mouth closed but inch by inch it snapped open.
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``Fadila Mbafeno,'' he gasped. ``May you choke on her her bones.''
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Masego let out a little surprised noise.
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``You've heard of her?'' I asked.
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``One of the better noble mages from our generation,'' Apprentice said.
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``Old blood, sworn to Wolof.''
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The city Heiress' mother ruled over. That was probably as close to
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confirmation as I was going to get.
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``Do you know of other spies in the Fifteenth?'' I questioned with a
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frown.
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``Everyone you love,'' Asger grinned, but he'd hesitated for a
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heartbeat.
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``I do dislike repeating myself,'' I grunted. ``\textbf{Answer the
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question}.''
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He screamed in anger but the words got out anyway.
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``There is another. Turned in Summerholm,'' he choked out. ``Don't know
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the name. Or anything else.''
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I clenched my fingers, then unclenched them.
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``More than one, most likely,'' Hakram grunted. ``Gold opens more doors
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than keys.''
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``I'll set up a trip ward over our camps from now on,'' Masego spoke.
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``If they're a mage, I'll be able to catch them scrying.''
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If they were not, however, ferreting them out would be much trickier.
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Unlike Black I didn't have a Scribe to direct agents to watch all the
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dark corners of Creation. \emph{I don't have anywhere as large a charge
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to watch over either, though.} Regardless, I'd need to stop depending on
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the information fed to me by my teacher eventually. Now was good a time
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as any to start setting the groundwork for that. \emph{But until then
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the Fifteenth is a barrel with a hole at the bottom, leaking out
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information all over the Empire.}
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``So what am I to do with you now, Sergeant Asger?'' I murmured.
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``The sale of military information when the Empire is in a state of war
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is high treason,'' Hakram growled. ``The noose for him.''
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``If you keep him alive, you might be able to pass false information
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through him,'' Masego pointed out.
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Could I, though? Could I actually keep this quiet enough Heiress
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wouldn't realize I'd caught her informant? It wasn't like I could just
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let the sergeant return to his tenth after this. And though I'd put this
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incident under the seal, word would spread. It was impossible to make an
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arrest like this without \emph{someone} noticing, even at this time of
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the night. Before the week was done word would have spread through the
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entire Fifteenth. Even if the spies didn't know each other's identities
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-- which I assumed to be the case -- there would still be suspicions as
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to \emph{why} Asger had been arrested. It might be notable enough to
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pass either way, and there was no telling if Heiress had given
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instructions to report any and all arrests. Which I would have done, in
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her place. \emph{Then let's presume she has.} If none of the other spies
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were mages, or if they were too scared to scry after tonight, then I
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might still manage to pass some false information before Heiress caught
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on.
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``The advantage that could give us is too minor to go through all the
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trouble of keeping a liability like him around,'' I finally said.
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``I see how it is,'' Asger sneered. ``When your Callowan buddies do it
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they get the soft death or your special company, but if it's a
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greenskin? Slaves who misbehave get the noose.''
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``You're right,'' I admitted, and Hakram started in surprise. ``I've
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been too soft on people. And things like this will keep happening as
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long as I continue. So I'll start correcting that error with you.''
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I glanced at Hakram.
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``Have Tordis' men take him. He hangs at dawn, before the entire
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legion.''
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---
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I was too restless to return to my tent afterwards.
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I took a walk around camp, stopping to talk with the sentries, then made
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my way out. Juniper has chosen a place close to a hill for us to stop
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today, the kind of low slope that occasionally dotted the landscape of
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this part of Callow. It was a half-moon out tonight, and I breathed in
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the night breeze with a sigh of pleasure. The camp might not smell as
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bad as a city, but the stench of nearly two thousand soldiers was not
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something to dismiss out of hand. I was amusing myself by picking out
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the constellations in the sky when Hakram found me. I heard him long
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before I saw him, even with my Name vision -- my adjutant was a lot of
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things, but stealthy was not one of them.
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``I've had the scrying tool handed over to Apprentice,'' he told me
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without bothering with a greeting. ``He says he might be able to make
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something of it, given enough time.''
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I hummed in acknowledgement.
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``I've had a melody stuck in my head, these last few months,'' I said.
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``I just recalled a verse from it.''
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I looked up at the night sky and recited the lyrics.
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``\emph{The first step is hardest, they said to her}
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\emph{You will have to walk through fire}
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\emph{It will burn away what you once were,}
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\emph{And always devour whole a liar}.''
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``Never heard it before,'' Hakram admitted. ``Though the melody does
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sound familiar.''
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``I can't remember where I heard it,'' I admitted. ``Silly thing to be
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bothered over, I guess.''
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``I wouldn't say that,'' the tall orc replied, coming to stand besides
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me.
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We enjoyed the silence for a long moment, the wind stirring my hair.
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``Tordis' line,'' I spoke suddenly. ``They're trustworthy?''
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``As can be,'' he agreed.
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I clenched my fingers and unclenched them.
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``I'm transferring them -- and her -- to your direct command. I have a
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job for you.''
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``Hunting rats, is it?'' he said.
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``All of them, Hakram,'' I murmured. ``I want all of Heiress' informants
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found. I don't know what she's planning, but I fully intend to set fire
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to that fucking plan and shove the ashes down her throat.''
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``Looking forward to it,'' the orc gravelled, tone low and fierce.
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I let out a tired sigh. I could feel, deep in my bones, that we were
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standing on the edge of a precipice. Not just with the Silver Spears,
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though I had a feeling I'd be feeling the aftermaths of that battle for
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the coming years. Here, on this hill, I had to make a choice.
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\emph{Trust him or not.} He was my friend. Of all the people I'd met
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since leaving Laure, he was perhaps the only person I'd give that title
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to without quibbling. But like Juniper had pointed out, how much did I
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really know about him?
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``Why did you join the Legions, Hakram?''
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He chuckled, the sound like rocks being ground to dust.
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``That's not the question you're really asking,'' he said. ``What you
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mean is \emph{what do you want out of the Legions}?''
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I did not deny it. I felt him smile.
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``I didn't have dreams, when I was a kid. I learned to fight because
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that's what we do. I was clever, I suppose, so the chief picked me for
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College and I figured -- why not? The company fights weren't interesting
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but they weren't boring, and some of the classes were worth the time.
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Then one day I looked around and realized I was about to graduate. It
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scared me, Catherine, because I was going to become a soldier and there
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was nothing I wanted to fight for.''
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I glanced at him and saw his eyes were hooded under the moonlight, lost
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in remembrance.
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``It's not a problem we usually have, you know,'' he spoke. ``Needing a
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reason to fight. They always tell us it's in the blood. But it isn't,
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for me. I don't get the battle-joy when smashing some poor bastard's
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face in. Still, I was prepared to just\ldots{} drift through the rest of
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my life.''
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He shook himself, as if waking up.
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``Then you arrived. Some slip of a girl with a fake name, who looked
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defeat in the face and decided she would win anyway,'' his lips
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stretched into a grin. ``You had blind spots, though, needed someone to
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cover them for you. I did, and it made me realize I'm \emph{good} at
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this.''
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He waved, encompassing everything and nothing.
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``So I followed and I watched. It was during the melee that I realized
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half the Empire would rather set the table on fire than let you have a
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seat -- and they expected to win, too. Don't they always? Sooner or
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later, better blood wins out. We mongrels are only ever meant to bow.''
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His skeletal hand tightened, grinding against the hilt of his sword.
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``The presumption makes my blood boil,'' he growled. ``It makes we want
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to \emph{crush} them, cut through them with fire and sword down until
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there's nothing left but wails and a field of ashes. It doesn't really
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matter, if you end up making the world better or worse with your plans.
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I just want to break the odds, to bring down the ceiling on their
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fucking heads.''
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The tension went out of him as suddenly as it had appeared and Hakram
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laughed, the sound delighted.
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``And so, at last, I am an orc.''
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I breathed out. There were things I could have said, promises I could
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have made, but all of them meaningless in the face of the brutal truth
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he had offered.
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``I spoke with Black, the other night,'' I spoke instead. ``He told me
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he's the most selfish man I'll ever meet, and I know him well enough by
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now to know he meant every word. I should have been repulsed by that,
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but I wasn't. Underneath all the rationalizations I think I'm just the
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same.''
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There'd been a time where confessing that would have stung, but I was no
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longer that young. No longer so set in the ways of my childhood, when
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death had been a sin instead of a method.
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``When I was younger, I looked at how Laure was falling apart and
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wondered why no one was doing anything. Why they were just trying to
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squeak away a living around the mess instead of fixing it. For years, I
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wanted there to be a hero who came in an offered salvation. But no one
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came. Then I got older and started to hear the rumours, about how they
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did come -- and died, having accomplished nothing.''
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I close my eyes.
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``That's when I realized that nothing was ever going to change, if I
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just waited for someone else to step up. It's not that I think I've been
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chosen, Hakram. I haven't. \emph{I choose.}''
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I bared my teeth at the moon in a defiant rictus.
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``I am no longer willing to let someone else decide my fate for me, not
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even for my own good. I despise the idea with every fibre of my being.
|
|
And if I don't trust them with my own life, why would I trust them with
|
|
anyone else's? Why would I entrust them with the land of my birth?''
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|
The sentence had been spoken softly, but for all that it resonated
|
|
clearly. Treason often did.
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|
``I could dance around the words, call it a reform or a takeover of the
|
|
system -- but the truth is simpler. I want to rule Callow.''
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|
|
|
It felt strange, to finally say it out loud. All these years I'd avoided
|
|
even thinking it, the concept too close to selfish ambition for comfort.
|
|
|
|
``For my sake. For everyone else's. And so I will break anything,
|
|
anybody who gets in my way,'' I admitted quietly. ``Whether they be gods
|
|
or kings or all the armies in Creation.''
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|
|
|
Hakram met my eyes and then slowly, with all the inevitability of a
|
|
great tree falling, knelt. The breeze ruffled the tall grass in the
|
|
fields below us, shiver and caress both. His silhouette looked unearthly
|
|
in the moonlight, more faerie than orc.
|
|
|
|
``Warlord,'' he rasped.
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|
|
|
A promise. An oath. I clasped his arm and hoisted him up.
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|
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|
``Adjutant,'' I replied, and in that same moment it became the truth.
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|
And so it ended. And so it began.
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