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\section{Chapter 39: Exposition}\label{chapter-39-exposition}}

\begin{quote}
\emph{``It's hard for people to understand what it means to have been
part of the Fifteenth. We were farmboys and thieves, not people that
were ever supposed to matter. Fodder for noose and ledger. But then she
came along, and told us we were to be the doom of gods. Heavens forgive
me, but I believed her then and believe her still.''}

-- Extract from the `Forlorn Memoirs', author unknown
\end{quote}

The banners flew tall in morning wind, carried by the Gallowborne. Two
banners now, for I had not forgotten my promise to Talbot. A silver
fifteen in Miezan numerals set on black was the herald of my legion, the
standard under which it would fight until we were all ground to dust by
time or steel. I kept to the colours, but by emblem was different.
Silver scales shivered over us, measuring a crown and a sword. The sword
weighed heavier, as much on cloth as it did in Creation. House
Foundling's words were sewed under them, the one debt I owed Akua
Sahelian I would never be able to repay. \emph{Justifications matter
only to the just.} Grim words, perhaps, but none had rung more true
since I'd taken the knife and the offer behind it. Juniper had not
commented on them after an initial guarded glance. The two of us marched
with the vanguard, though when we came in sight of Dormer she would
retreat to her command post to rule over the battlefield. The Hellhound
killed with her mind, not her hands. She was more terrible an opponent
for it.

Ahead of us lay plains that had once been green, before Summer came to
own them. Now half the land was scorched black and the rest lusher than
was possible in Creation. Orchards bore fruits regardless of the season,
fields already harvested grew again tall and golden wheat. There would
be food shortages, in the coming months. My homeland had seen war twice
in three years, this one even more devastating than the last. Even if
the blackened earth was made cultivable again, how many of those fields
would lack men to till them? Summer had killed many, harmed more and I
knew Akua would bring deeper wounds still. She was of the old breed, the
one whose madness was worthy of some awe if only for the scale of its
folly. Walking the aftermath of Three Hills I'd gotten a glimpse of what
that felt like. Seen fate written in mud and blood and eerie green
flame, and though doom had lurked in that vision when I'd thought of
embracing it I had felt so gloriously \emph{alive}.

I'd fought battles since then. Desperate ones, and the pull of that
first moment had long faded. It would have been a lie to say I did not
still relish in victory, in breaking whatever lay in path, but I had
been tempered by so many dances on the blade's edge. It was one thing to
gamble the lives of strangers for your purposes, to risk it all on a
roll of the dice, but I'd come to dread it. I'd won more often than not,
so far, but how long could I keep that up? My mistake had been coming to
love them. It was also my last saving grace. How easy it would have been
to become like Black, utterly divorcing affection and necessity, if I'd
not found a family in my companions. My teacher had done great things,
by embracing that cold unfeeling clarity. But atrocious ones as well,
and I would not follow him down that road. The more my Name and the
mantle I had stolen from Winter set me apart from humanity, the more I
understood I had to grasp tightly onto it. The thing I'd become
otherwise would care nothing for what I wanted to build.

``We've come a long way from the College, haven't we?'' I said.

For once, Juniper did not chide me for being foolishly sentimental. The
Hellhound had been my opponent once, I thought, if never quite my enemy.
It felt like a colourless dream now. I'd grown to rely so much on her
that I'd feel lost if she was gone.

``Didn't think much of you, back then,'' she grunted. ``Too mouthy. Not
as clever as you believed you were.''

``I never did manage to get the drop on you, after the once,'' I
chuckled.

It was a strange thing, recognizing that someone was cleverer than you.
And Juniper was, I would not deny it. It wasn't so clear-cut a thing as
most people pretended when posturing, of course. Cleverness was no
perfect shield. The smartest woman in the world could be outmanoeuvred
by a fool, under the right circumstances. Or by luck, or by a myriad
other factors that no one ever really liked to talk about. But the fact
remained that Juniper saw things I didn't, when it came to strategy.
Pondered a few steps deeper, arranged her thoughts more clearly.
Diabolist did the same, when it came to plotting, and it had little to
do with her Name. There was always someone better. I'd felt slighted by
that when I was younger, as if just by being me I had to be the best at
everything I undertook. Nowadays I just felt relieved, that I had
someone at my side who could steer us away from the mistakes I would
have made. Was there anything more worthless than pride, if the cost of
it was the death of those precious to you?

``You always get strange before battles,'' Juniper sighed. ``After too,
sometimes. Like you're far away.''

That was pretty funny, coming from a woman who was in the custom of
finding high ground to sleep on whenever a fight was finished. And that
was without mentioning how she'd apparently napped through the latter
part of the Battle of Marchford.

``You're odder than me,'' I said. ``Calm as you are. Nauk can't stop
grinning for half a day before a battle.''

``Hakram doesn't,'' she said.

``Hakram's different,'' I replied.

She grunted, conceding the point.

``Used to think he was a coldblood,'' Juniper admitted. ``Everything was
surface deep with him. Nothing real under.''

Coldblood. A disease of the mind, I'd been taught. People who felt less,
didn't get remorse or really understand consequences. Adjutant had told
me some things in the dark that let me see why she'd thought him one.
What she'd taken for absence was just apathy.

``I take after my father more,'' the orc said.

I looked at her, surprise. She rarely talked about her family, and what
little she did was only about her mother.

``He's the one who raised you, right?'' I said.

``Until the College,'' she said. ``He's always been\ldots{} calm.''

``So he lost the rite of raising,'' I said.

The orc looked amused.

``Read that in a Soninke book, did you?'' she said.

``Taghreb, I think,'' I shrugged. ``I had a lot of books plopped onto my
lap before meeting you, the titles kind of meld together nowadays.''

``The custom exists,'' she said. ``But only Praesi think it's common. If
a couple needs to fight to choose who'll raise the child, they shouldn't
be having children. It's a sign of immaturity.''

``Well, I learned something today,'' I mused.

She bared the faintest hint of her fangs in what I knew to mean
amusement. Or flirtation. Probably the former, all things considered.

``I have it too,'' she said suddenly. ``My mother's blood. The
battle-joy.''

I studied her in silence.

``I was born for this,'' she said. ``Of this. It's what I am and I can't
remember ever craving anything else.''

It was always hard to tell with orcs, but I thought she looked
uncomfortable. Almost ashamed. No fangs visible, hairless brows pressing
together.

``We're supposed to want glory for the clan,'' she said. ``To make our
own grow stronger. But all I saw were fucking huts and cattle and I
couldn't wait to leave. I almost ran away, when I was younger. There's
only so many times you can sketch out formations in the dirt before you
feel \emph{choked}.''

I knew that feeling. I had followed me in Laure, when I was waiting
tables and picking up bruises in the Pit when I should have been in the
Wasteland, learning at the College. Like I was just wasting away my
days. That I should have been out there doing something, \emph{anything}
but just sifting through the muck to earn enough coin to really begin my
life.

``I hate the orphanage, at the end,'' I quietly said. ``It wasn't that
they were out to get me, it was just\ldots{}''

``In the way,'' Juniper finished. ``Quicksand you'd get stuck in if you
waited too long.''

She laughed hoarsely.

``I used to fight battles in my head when herding aurochs,'' the orc
said, almost sounding like she was mocking herself. ``All the victories
of the Conquest, how I could have won them better.''

``I kept a tally of who I'd kill when I had the authority,'' I admitted.
``Mazus was always top of the list. But then he hanged, and it had
little to do with me.''

Juniper hesitated.

``What Lord Black was to you,'' she said. ``You were to me.''

My face flickered in surprise.

``Not a mentor,'' she growled, but the irritation petered out. ``The
offered hand, I mean. If I hadn't become your legate I'd be a junior
officer in someone else's legion right now. I never thanked you for
that.''

``Don't,'' I said. ``I wouldn't have gotten this far without you,
Juniper. Stings to admit it, but it's true.''

``Wouldn't be the same without you either,'' she said. ``It's not about
the rank, Catherine. The rank is just what gets me there. I
want\ldots{}''

There was something burning in my general then that I'd never seen in
her before. I'd seen her cold and amused and furious and irritated more
times than I could count. I'd even seen her tender, though only with
Aisha.

``More,'' she said, sounding angry at the inadequacy of the word.
``Three Hills, Marchford even Arcadia. No one's fought like that before.
We get to \emph{make} that. They'll study our battles, centuries from
now. Some other girl stuck herding godsdamned aurochs will think about
our mistakes, how she could have outsmarted our opponents.''

``Making history,'' I mused.

She laughed.

``Fuck history,'' she said. ``We're changing the face of \emph{war}. And
it's just beginning, Catherine. The storm ahead will make this all look
like drizzle.''

Ahead was Dormer, the full might of Summer and the Queen that ruled it.
But she thought beyond that, and so did I. The Diabolist had carved doom
out of stone and sorcery, and she would not quietly into the night. And
on the horizon, Procer sharpened its blades. In a year or ten, the
Principate would come calling and with the greatest army on the face of
Calernia. There would be heroes in that host, and not like the ones I'd
killed. The real legends, the heroes weren't bound to small stories like
mine. The Calamities were the greatest monsters of the age, but they'd
lived so long because they kept their wars small and their enemies
distracted. One day the great Named of the other side would come forward
and the old wars would be born again. Those that warped the lands,
flattened mountains and burned cities. I'd have to be ready for them,
for the people who wanted to make my home the battlefield of the
continent again. If I could not have peace in truth, then I would settle
for the peace of the grave.

It was the kind of victory I'd been trained for.

``I don't think,'' I said quietly, ``that we'll be remembered fondly.
Not you, and certainly not me.''

``Ah,'' Juniper of the Red Shields smiled. ``But they \emph{will}
remember us.''

Silence reigned for a long moment after that, more comfortable than I
would have thought. The Hellhound wasn't someone who felt the need the
fill the air with words when she had nothing to say. Something I'd grown
to appreciate, since Archer had joined by band. The quiet was how I came
to hear it even though the wind blew the other way and we were ahead of
the thick of the host. The Fifteenth and its allies trailed at our back
like a great snake of glittering steel, and it was from my legionaries
that the song came. Lightly, at first, the words indistinct even to my
Name-sharpened ears. But after the first time it was sung, thousands
more voices joined in. Even the vanguard around us.

``I was born out in the green where their banners flew high

And the boots of the great lords they did tread over us

Oaths we made and service gave, kneeling to the oldest lie

But now the world's turned around and we sing this chorus.''

Orcs and goblins. Soninke and Taghreb. But, most of all, Callowans. The
muster of my homeland sang, light and bright but there was such
\emph{anger} underneath. It scared me. My veins sang with it, but it
scared me.

``Come forth you old devils,

Bring out your lesser evils

Blight the skies and the land

You'll be met sword in hand

One day your children'll tell

Of the deep and rebel yell,

That on his field so sombre

Conquered host of horror.''

Juniper looked up at the sun. The red-painted steel had warmed over the
march, though like most orcs she did not sweat easily.

``I wondered if they'd sing it,'' she said.

``You knew about this?'' I said quietly.

``Aye,'' she said. ``Nauk penned part. Named it too. \emph{In Dread
Crowned}.''

Gods, what had I unleashed? I'd thought I understood. That I had crafted
an escapement for what would have made Callow claw at itself, a release
that would let it change and escape the curse that defined it. But it
wasn't just Callowans that sang. Greenskins and Praesi joined their
voices to the chorus, and though their anger was of a different make it
was no less harsh for it. There was a story the House of Light liked to
use in sermons. That on the day of the First Dawn, the Gods Below had
created all the evil in the world and released it. The Gods Above had
caught it all in the box without a lock, and Creation would have been as
the Heavens had the first of men not opened it, seduced by the whispers
of devils promising godhood lay within. That was why the brothers and
sisters taught rules, the priests said. So that on the last of days,
when Good triumphed, the evils would be forced into the box again. Again
it would be without a lock, but mankind would have learned. They would
not open it again.

I'd carved a crack into the box and now the insides were spilling out.
It hadn't been evils, inside. It had been anger. Bitter old anger that
had not before been given a banner to rally under. It had one, now. It
flew behind me, scales that weighed crown and sword and found the crown
wanting. There was a promise there I had not meant, but was written for
all to see.

``On the plain where folk were fair we stood and greatly slew,

And by the ford a score devils with a great demon too

Prince and page and swordsman proud to our steel they all fell

The world stolen we take back and damn you all to Hell

The chorus came again\emph{.} My blood ran cold, and pressed against my
ear the Beast laughed. It was awake, alive and savouring every moment of
this with malevolent glee. \emph{Blood}, it whispered. \emph{There will
be blood over this}. The Fifteenth Legion sang, and declared war on the
mighty of the world. My general was looking at me.

``You promised a revolution, Warlord,'' Juniper said.

She bared her teeth, perfect ivory fangs.

``We will not settle for anything less.''

She laughed, harsh but joyous.

``Did I not tell you?'' she said. ``\emph{They will remember us}.''

It spread. To the legionaries of the Twelfth and the Fourth, men and
women not bound to me. To the Deoraithe, though not as many. I had
gathered forty thousand soldiers to my banner, and they sang of treason
to the morning sky. I could hear refrains in it, slivers of people I
knew. Robber's sharp, vicious smile as he whispered \emph{they kill us
for sport}. The fever in Ratface's eyes as he said \emph{they'll never
stop unless we make them}. Pickler's warning, echoed in every chorus.
\emph{It'll be to the death, Foundling}. \emph{Do not begin this
lightly}. I'd spoken the words. Those had consequences, for Named more
than any other. \emph{If you employ violence}, the Empress had told me,
\emph{in violence they will follow.} I had not made peace. I had traded
one war for another, and this one would be a thousand times bloodier
than the last. I would be woe unto all I beheld, the Queen of Summer had
so sadly told me. There had been a weight to the name when it was
granted to me and finally I was feeling it in full. I'd thought I owned
this, because I'd been the one to speak the words. That I could control
it. Oh but the arrogance of that. You couldn't break open a dam and
order the river.

I had taught them this. And Gods, they had learned. One decision after
another, spitting in the eye of gods and compromise both, and I had
promised them that if we paid the butcher's bill we could change the
world. I'd told Archer that there was something happening in the Empire
beyond any of us. That they were not in control. Neither, I understood
then, was I.

``Be they high or resplendent our oaths stand taller still

And in the west do quiet lie graves we have yet to fill

Learn ye mighty that from Tower's shade to vales of red

The Fifteenth by call of horn stands ever crowned in dread.''

The song carried us all the way to Dormer. Behind broken walls Summer
awaited us, a riot of silk and steel not of Creation. We had made good
time, as it was not long past Noon Bell. We had until dawn before a god
in the flesh came to destroy us.

It was no longer, I thought, the worst of my problems.