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\section{Chapter 58: Hard Measures}\label{chapter-58-hard-measures}}
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\begin{quote}
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\emph{``And so Subira of the Sahelians slew Maleficent and said:
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`Emperor am I now, Sinister of name and deed. Let this be the truth of
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our empire, that iron ever sharpens iron `til the last cut is
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made.'\,''}
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-- Extract from the Scroll of Thrones, second of the Secret Histories of
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Praes
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\end{quote}
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There was a House of Light standing at the heart of the largest Praesi
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army in a century. The irony had amused me more than it should, and the
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sharp taste of it on my tongue had driven me to make the temple my
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headquarters for the night. There'd been no one to contest my decision:
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the lone sister remaining of the priests who'd once tended to the
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village now swallowed up by tents and palisades was out. Among the
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legionaries, I was told, tending to the wounded and the sick. I could
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admire the dedication, though she'd find few soldiers willing to allow
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her ministrations save for those of my Fifteenth. Praesi had a deep
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abiding distrust of anything that claimed it came without strings
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attached. Misplaced wariness here, but common sense in the Wasteland.
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``By the pulpit, please,'' I told the legionaries.
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A pair of broad-shouldered orcs set down my gloriously comfortable fae
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seat before the low wooden frame, casting uncomfortable looks at their
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surrounding. There was hardly anything to look at, this village being
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too small to even warrant mention on most maps. The House had been built
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in the style of the central plains anyway, instead of the more ornate
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Liessen ways. Walls of wood and clay, a single window in the back that
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was nothing more than a hole bare of glass or shutters. There wasn't
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even an adjoining backroom for the priests to sleep in -- only a house
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more hut than cottage huddled up against the wall outside. A third
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legionary, this one bearing captain stripes on her shoulders, lingered
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by the pulpit with my writing tools in her hands.
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``You can set those down,'' I said. ``I don't believe we've met before.
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You're one of Hune's, right?''
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``My cohort serves under Legate Hune, yes,'' she agreed, the thick
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Summerholm accent making it plain where she was from.
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She grimaced.
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``Ma'am, are you sure you wouldn't prefer your tent?'' she asked.
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\emph{They know where my tent is,} I thought\emph{. They'll be watching
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it.}
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``Captain,'' I began.
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``Abigail, ma'am,'' the woman provided.
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``That will be all, Captain Abigail,'' I said gently. ``You may go.''
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The Callown sharply saluted, half her face rosy in that way flesh tended
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to be after protracted mage healing. All the way up to the eye, I noted.
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She must have fought in the skirmish against Fasili and his wights. The
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pair of orcs followed her after dismissal, joining the contingent of
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guards that would be outside, and I let myself fall into the cushioned
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seat. Out of habit I pushed the inkpot and quill to the right side the
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way they'd taught me at the orphanage, reaching for a sheath of
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parchment and unrolling it. The soft calf skin had seen use before,
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though without Name sight I would never have noticed the hints of words
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that remained on it -- whoever scraped the skin had done thorough work.
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Calmly, I opened the buttons of my shirt and reached for the three
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documents I had been keeping on me ever since receiving them. One was
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from Malicia, though not of her handwriting. The second bore Thief's
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hasty scrawl and the third was a hand I knew more than passingly,
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Ratface's. All of them bore names. Setting the three ahead of my own
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parchment I inked my quill and began to write. Two columns, the first
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for those that were in more than one document and the other for the
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single mentions. I blew carefully on the ink after finishing, and only
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then paused. Seven names from the first column were given a mark. Those
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I let dry on their own, settling into the seat and waiting for Hakram.
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Adjutant, ever a prince among men, did not make me wait for long.
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``Masego says it's all ready,'' the orc told me without bothering with
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niceties.
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I approved. This was not going to be a good night for those.
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``And he's certain it won't be detected?'' I asked.
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The tall greenskin snorted.
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``He thought you'd ask that,'' he said. ``Should I give you the answer
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he prepared?''
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``I assume it's very condescending,'' I said.
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``Almost poetically so,'' Hakram grinned.
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The flash of fang he bared was low, close to the lips and paired with
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eye contact. That, I had learned, usually meant amusement in an orc.
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Though not all of them, to my irritation. The clans from the Lesser
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Steppes kept to their own strange customs. He lingered after, and I
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drummed my fingers against the pulpit.
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``Out with it,'' I said. ``Do you need more men? Because there's only so
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many I would count trustworthy, and I don't want to dip into the Broken
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Bells for that.''
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``Forty is plenty,'' he replied. ``Truth be told, I want to keep the
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second line you gave me after the business is over, if it can be done. I
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have too many irons in the fire these days for the number of hands I can
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command.''
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``I'll talk to Juniper,'' I said. ``But Nauk's command was gutted in
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Dormer and Senior Tribune Jwahir is low on veterans, so I wouldn't count
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on it for a few months.''
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I raised an eyebrow after that. Another line under his command was very
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clearly not what he'd wanted to talk about. My mood turned sour when I
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remembered another matter I'd recently slid under his purview.
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``Wait, is this about Nauk?'' I said. ``I thought that was going fine.''
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He shook his head.
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``Hierophant took a look, like you asked,'' the orc said. ``He'll be
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awake in a week, up and about in a month. You can leave that to me, Cat.
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I'm just worrying about our\ldots{} timing.''
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``It had to be tonight,'' I reminded him. ``The assault starts come
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morning. If we'd done this earlier she would have had breathing room.''
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``There are officers on that list,'' Hakram said, and it was not a
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question.
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``Highest is a tribune,'' I replied.
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Confirmation from Thief and Malicia. That one had stung more than I'd
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thought is would, given that he'd enrolled back in Ater.
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``I mislike what this'll do to our chain of command,'' he bluntly said.
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``On the eve of the largest battle we've ever fought, no less.''
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``You can't' seriously be suggesting we just \emph{leave} them there,''
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I said, appalled.
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He sighed.
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``No, not that,'' he said. ``I just wish we'd done this early enough the
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replacements would be settled. Before you begin, I understand why we
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didn't.''
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``The wager's that we'll gain more than we lose from this,'' I said. ``I
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stand by it.''
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The orc looked away, the thoughtful look I caught first eminently
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strange on a greenskin's face.
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``It's been a long time coming,'' he finally said.
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``I wish it was a masterstroke,'' I admitted. ``It's why we delayed so
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much. But even now it's just spring cleaning, isn't it? We won't be
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getting all of them.''
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``I doubt there's a single army in the world that could boast
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\emph{that},'' he ruefully said. ``Perfect is foe to functional.''
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A saying translated from Kharsum, that, though there was one much like
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it in Callow. Still, I silently admired the fact he'd managed to put
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alliteration in there through a language barrier.
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``It won't be pleasant work,'' I said.
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As close to an apology as I could offer him.
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``Pleasant's herding aurochs back home,'' Hakram said. ``We chose
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different lives, you and I.''
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I inclined my head.
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``Good hunting, Adjutant,'' I simply said.
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What his lips bared was not a smile so much as a row of knives. He left
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me to my thoughts, and though my mind was spinning it never lingered on
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any single thread. There were too many moving parts ahead, though
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thorough planning should see to the worst of it. It began in truth when
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Grandmaster Talbot was ushered through the door, an hour before Midnight
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Bell. The nobleman -- as a knight he still qualified as that, even
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though his family's ancestral holdings were now my own demesne -- was
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impeccably arranged even this late, dark locks combed and his beard
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without a single hair out of order. The cloak on his shoulders I nearly
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raised an eyebrow at, though the black and bronze I saw were the colours
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of the Order and not of House Talbot. It still looked more decorative
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than truly useful, but wasn't that always the way of highborn? He knelt
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smoothly before the pulpit, and if he'd taken any offense to a villain
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using holy site for writing desk there'd been no trace of it on his
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face.
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``Your Grace,'' he said. ``I come as summoned.''
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``On your feet, Talbot,'' I said. ``I've never had much fondness for
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kneeling, mine or otherwise. I have work for you.''
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He rose as elegantly as he'd gone on his knees, but now I saw sharp
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attention in his eyes where before there'd only been curiosity.
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``It was my understanding that the assault would begin with Morning
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Bell,'' he said.
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``It will,'' I said. ``That's not what I want you for. Or the Order, to
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be more precise.''
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``We are ever at your disposal, Your Grace,'' Brandon Talbot said.
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Noblespeak for having not fucking idea what I was talking about, and I
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was glad of it. If they saw me coming\ldots{} I'd kept my preparations
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light and quiet, but Akua had always been the better hand at this game.
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``I have a list of names for you,'' I said. ``When you return to the
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Order's encampment, you will rouse your men and proceed through the
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Fifteenth to arrest everyone on it.''
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The man's eyes widened.
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``You have found traitors in the legion,'' he said.
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``Most of these I've known about for months, if not years,'' I said
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calmly. ``I've had Adjutant hunting for them since before he even had
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his Name. The intent was to watch who they came in contact with, but
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Diabolist has been very careful. In the end I had to rely on other
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eyes.''
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``And now you would purge them before engaging the Wastelander,'' Talbot
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murmured.
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It wouldn't be all of them, of course. She'd have more, carefully hidden
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under instructions to lay low. But by killing what I hoped was the
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majority of her agents when she had no time to replace them I'd be
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either crippling or ending whatever scheme she had prepared. It took
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more than a handful of spies to carry out a plan, no matter how
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well-placed. I folded the parchment I'd written on and held out my hand.
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He hesitated before coming forward and taking it, eyes lingering on my
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fingers. I smiled discretely. I remembered enough of my etiquette
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lessons to know nobles weren't supposed to taken anything directly from
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the crowned head of Callow, and it was almost charming he kept to that
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even now. Grandmaster Talbot opened the parchment and read through,
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expression growing grimmer the longer he did.
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``There are more than I would have believed,'' he said. ``And Callowans
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among them.''
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``I doubt they knew who they were selling the information to,'' I noted.
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``She'll have used Callowan or Duni intermediaries. The names in the
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second column gave intelligence, but should not be considered agents.
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Just treasonous.''
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``Tribune Katlego,'' he said, eyebrows rising in surprise as he studied
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the first column closer. ``Second in rank among Legate Hune's officers,
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I believe.''
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``I'm told hostages were taken,'' I said.
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The Empress had written as much. But he'd folded instead of going to me,
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and so on the list he went.
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``That is the reason there is no mark by his name,'' I added after a
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moment.
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``And those have meaning, I take it,'' the man said.
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``Those seven officers,'' I said mildly, ``are going to resist arrest.
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They will, unfortunately, die in the struggle.''
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The knight's face went still and he studied me silently.
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``Trial would be inconvenient, even with a military tribunal,'' he said.
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``They have relatives in the Legion,'' I said. ``Or connections at
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court. This will make fewer waves.''
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``This is murder,'' he said.
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There was no condemnation in his voice. It was easy to forget, sometimes
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that while the nobles of the kingdom had been no High Lords they'd been
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far from being babes in the woods. Callow was no stranger to knives in
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the dark. His words had not been question but statement of fact, and I
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did not deny them.
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``So it is,'' I agreed. ``See it done promptly. Supply Tribune Ratface
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has a man outsides, awaiting you with details on the location of
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everyone on the list.''
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Brandon Talbot folded the parchment and slid it inside his doublet
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before putting his palm over his heart and bowing.
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``By your leave, my queen,'' the Grandmaster said.
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I met his eyes, and did not correct him. I had few advantages over my
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enemies, I thought as I watched him leave, but the Order of Broken Bells
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was one of them. Callowan loyalists who'd been in hiding until a few
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months ago, and had hardly left my sight since. They were near certain
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to be free of infiltration and unlikely to balk at the killing of
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Praesi. It would not be entirely quiet work, of course. The knights
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mobilizing after dark would draw attention. I was counting on it,
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because there were very few mages on that list. Not nearly enough to
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explain how quickly Akua was made aware of my movements. Which meant
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there were more hidden, and like good spies they would report the
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ongoing purge to their mistress. At which point their locations would be
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caught by Maesgo's ward, and Adjutant would would take them. A scheme, I
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had been taught, should always have more than one payoff. \emph{I was
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slow in learning, Akua, but I have learned.} The lists I had received
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from others I put to the flame. I sent for legionaries and had my seat
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and affairs removed after, though I did not leave the House. I sat on a
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wooden bench close to the entrance, little more than a carved log, and
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waited.
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As the hours passed I received reports, some more pleasing than others.
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The Broken Bells had killed twelve, not seven as I had ordered. Whether
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Talbot had taken this occasion to settle some scores with an excuse or
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whether those had been genuine accidents, I would have Hakram find out
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tomorrow. Adjutant caught two mages trying to reach Diabolist, one a
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lieutenant and Duni as well. \emph{We found the sloppy and the scared,}
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I thought. \emph{The truly dangerous ones did nothing at all.} I had
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considered, when planning this, snatching the lot of them from the
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gallows as I had once done with deserters in Summerholm. But I still
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remembered flames and Summer's wrath, the soldiers who'd died screaming
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for me, and found I did not have it in me to do it. Whatever the
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Gallowborne had begun as, they had been \emph{mine} in the end. I would
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not forge them anew out of dross like this. It was near First Bell when
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the reports trailed off, and in the wake of that end I dismissed my
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guards. Returning to my tent felt like a chore, and so I simply rested
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my head against the wall in the corner of the House. I knew, closing my
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eyes, that Adjutant would have people close by. It was enough.
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I closed my eyes, and sleep found me. An eternity later, I woke to a
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soft hand on my shoulder.
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``Dawn approaches, my friend,'' a woman's voice told me. ``The Legions
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have sounded assembly.''
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I'd been entirely awake from the moment I was touched, and drew back the
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hand that had gone for my sword out of habit. There was a woman standing
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at my side, barely out of girlhood. Her fair hair was kept in a thick
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braid, and her robes were simple. \emph{The sister}, I thought. I was
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surprised they'd let her in at all, with me asleep. From the corner of
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my eye I glimpsed a legionary sitting in another corner, and while the
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sister turned away I dismissed him with a nod. One of Hakram's? Most
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likely.
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``There's time yet,'' I said.
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The woman laughed softly.
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``I did not think the Legions so lenient,'' she said. ``You must be an
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officer.''
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\emph{She doesn't know who I am}, I realized. I was not wearing armour,
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and my clothes were well-made but nothing ostentatious. My blade was a
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longsword, not standard issue, but a priestess might not have noticed
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that.
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``I am,'' I replied amusedly. ``It's going to be a long day, regardless.
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A few moments of respite will not be begrudged.''
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``May I sit?'' the sister asked.
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``It's your House,'' I shrugged.
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``Not mine in the slightest,'' she said, though she sat at my side
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regardless. ``I was glad to hear the Fifteenth does not forbid worship
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of the Gods Above. Places such as these should be refuge to all, no
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matter their oaths.''
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``The Empire's never been heavy-handed with the priests,'' I said. ``No
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reason General Juniper should be different.''
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``Or the Black Queen, I suppose,'' the sister mused. ``We do live in
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interesting times.''
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I snorted.
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``No denying that,'' I said. ``Maybe a little less troublesome, after
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today. With the Diabolist gone the work of fixing this country can
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begin.''
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The priestess smiled to take away from the bite, but shook her head in
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disagreement.
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``Will it?'' she asked. ``Evil warring on Evil cannot result in Good.''
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I laid back against the wall, eyeing the light peering through the hole
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ahead. I had at least an hour left, long enough to wash and eat before
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muster.
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``I was told never to argue philosophy with the sisters, when I was a
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kid,'' I said. ``But that seems too dismissive by half.''
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``I care little for arguments,'' the sister said. ``But discussion is
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one of the tools the Gods granted us to make the world a little
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brighter.''
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``Shall we discuss then, Sister?'' I teased.
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Her face grew serious.
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``Saving one soul is saving all of Creation,'' she said.
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From the Book of All Things, that. One of the more sentimental quotes,
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and not one I put much stock in. Even if Malicia embraced the Heavens
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tomorrow, the Empire wouldn't change in the slightest -- save maybe with
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the addition of her blood on the floor.
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``Ah,'' I mused. ``Hard to have a discussion with that premise, isn't
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it? I don't really think we believe Evil to be the same thing, when it
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comes down to it.''
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``Then teach me,'' she said. ``I would not close my ears to the truth.''
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``You know, I was raised on the same stories as you,'' I said. ``I used
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to believe that Evil was mostly about a good ol' rousing round of
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hangings and sundry blood magic.''
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The blond priestess smiled gently.
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``But you don't anymore?''
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``You could say I've had the benefit of an extensive education on the
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subject,'' I replied. ``The way I see it, Sister, Evil is about refusing
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to play by the rules of the game.''
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She frowned. It was a pretty look on her, as I imagined most were. It
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would have been a lie I didn't find something attractive about purity,
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though power had always been what I preferred.
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``I'm afraid I don't quite follow,'' she admitted.
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``It think starts with asking \emph{why},'' I said. ``Why should I
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forgive? Why should I not kill? Why should I obey? And eventually you
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realize that there's all these rules handed down to you and then you get
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to the real question -- why shouldn't I just do whatever the Hells I
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want?''
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I chuckled, the sound of it resonating in the near-empty House of Light.
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``That's when you realize the answer's pretty simple: because someone
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thinks I shouldn't, and will stop me if I do.''
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I let out a long breath.
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``Most people stop there and become a minor league sort of evil. That
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one jackass in every village that always talks shit, the merchant that
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short-changes you or another corrupt judge.''
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My fingers idly closed around the pommel of my sword, thumb rubbing the
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leather wrap around the handle.
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``But once in a while, you get someone who doesn't flinch. Who decides
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it's not enough, and replies: try me. And then they pick up a sword.''
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I met her eyes and offered her a half-smile.
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``That's Evil, I think -- walking past the line in the sand and refusing
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to apologize for it.''
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The look on the Sister's face was unreadable.
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``You sound proud.''
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I shrugged.
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``Proud is a strong word,'' I said. ``But it's been some time since I
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was ashamed of it.''
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``Strange,'' she said softly. ``You did not strike me as someone who
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would embrace fear.''
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It was my turn to frown.
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``I think you might have missed my point.''
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She shook her head.
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``The way of thinking you just described assumes that the world around
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you is your enemy. That is not courage, it is \emph{fear}.''
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I laughed.
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``Look around you, Sister. The Diabolist is stealing cities, the
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Principate is marauding near the borders and just two years ago the
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south was in open rebellion. The world is full of enemies.''
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``Because you treat them like one,'' she told me seriously. ``If you
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solve all your problems with swords, swords are the only reply you will
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ever get.''
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``That's a nice sentiment,'' I replied, ``but it'll be cold comfort when
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the Procerans invade.''
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She sighed.
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``Ah, borders. I've never quite understood why they matter so much to
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people. You draw imaginary lines on the land and tell people to remain
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on one side, as if ink and parchment could make you its owner.''
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I had quite a few scathing things to reply to that, but since she'd been
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polite enough to let me speak uninterrupted I supposed I should afford
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her the same courtesy.
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``Do you know why the House of Light does not preach rebellion against
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the Empire? Because it doesn't really matter, whether we have a king or
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an empress. Rulers come and go, but what really matters doesn't.''
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I raised an eyebrow.
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``And what would that be, exactly?''
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``Trying to be better,'' she told me, and passion shone in her eyes.
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``No one is born Good. It's something you have to work for every day,
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and sometimes it can seem like more trouble than it is worth -- but what
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else is there?''
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She leaned forward.
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``So many of us see life as a race and will do anything to pull ahead,
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but that is the conceit of a child. If we all cross the same finish line
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the only thing that matters, the only thing that can matter, is
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\emph{how} we get there.''
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I grinned, but it was more a show of teeth than mirth.
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``Sentiment like that is how they get you every time, Sister. So what if
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we all cross the same finish line? Down here in the mud is what really
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matters. What we make of it. And if I only have so much time kicking
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around Creation, then I'm the one who's going to decide how it's spent.
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Not the Gods, not whoever's got a crown, \emph{me}. I own my life, and
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damn anyone telling me I need to live it abiding rules that are just a
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key to the other side.''
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She met my eyes, unafraid.
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``Life is what you share with others,'' she said. ``Hoard it and you
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will die all the poorer for it.''
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I ran a hand through my hair, frustrated that she just wouldn't see what
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I saw.
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``You don't even get to set the rules you live by,'' I said. ``You're a
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leaf spun in the wind deluding itself into thinking as long as it
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behaves it'll land somewhere nice.''
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She smiled, eyes gentle and sad. The kind of eyes you gave someone who
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was so far lost they didn't even remember what the path looked like. Her
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pity burned me harder than Summer's flame ever had.
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``And you think your way will let you choose where you land?''
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My mantle roiled under my skin, the weight of all the choices I had made
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and would make, the sum of what I was and would be.
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``That's where you're wrong, Sister,'' I told her, ``I don't want to be
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the leaf \emph{-- I want to be the storm}.''
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She laid a gentle hand on my wrist.
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``In the end,'' she murmured. ``I choose to believe that being Good
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matters more that being strong.''
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``In the end,'' I replied clearly, ``I would rather be wrong than be
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cowed.''
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And what more was there to say, after that? I rose, letting her hand
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fall away.
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``Be safe,'' she said. ``There are great dangers about.''
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I smiled, feeling a sliver of grief for all that this was.
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``Oh, Sister,'' I said. ``All those dangerous people? I'm the one they
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answer to.''
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